THE DEAL : Abhira

Chapter 15 - POSITIVE

AKSHARA

Positive

Pregnant

I am pregnant , I am pregnant , I had a little baby growing inside me . Why did it felt so touching , this was just a deal nothing more to me but why did it felt like an accomplishment . I have a baby inside me , my baby . My mind went blank only thing rang in my mind is baby , my baby , pregnant , I was pregnant . I don't know why I felt overwhelmed , tears rolled down my cheeks . Something was happening to me did this is what mothers felt but Why was I feeling this . My body was shivering , my face was covered with sweat and tears . Why was I feeling this , Why it felt like I have achieved something in life .
My chain of thoughts were broken by knock on the bathroom door .

" Akshara , are you okay ; do you need anything ? " Abhimanyu asked .

" y..ye..yes " I spoke after lot of failed tries of framing a sentence and clearing my throat to speak up .

I wiped my tears , grabbed the test card , cleared my throat ,composing my self I went out of the the washroom .

" What's it ? " he asked .

" Its .. p.." I tried speaking but failed , it felt like if I say a word I would end up crying ; I just forwarded the test card to him , and moved to my bed .

ABHIMANYU

The test card showed two pink lines , which meant that Akshara conceived , she was pregnant with my baby . My baby , my baby made it to the world not world actually but on its way . Finally ! in some months , I would have my baby in my arms . It felt so good , I was overwhelmed , tears rolled down my cheeks . I went inside the washroom because I can't show this side of mine to her . I went inside the washroom and splashed water on my face , tears I had tears in my eyes , this was the first time I had teared up after my father's death . Nothing affected me since then , I became emotionless after my father left me alone for this world . This is the first time I felt like I am going to have someone who will be just mine . Maybe it was my father who will come back as my child , I didn't believe in such supersition but when it came to my father I would believe anything . I just cried my heart out silently in the washroom remembering my late father , and preparing myself for my future .

AKSHARA

I came and snuggled into my duvet , tears were not stopping ; I don't know what was happening to me . Mood swings may be they were mood swings but no I can just cover it up saying mood swings but my heart knew they weren't , something was happening to me . I don't know when I fell into slumber while thinking all of this . I was brought back by Abhimanyu saying .

" Akshara, wake up we have to go see the doctor "

" yeah ! I will did you take the appointment " I spoke , trying to pull my body out of the bed .

" Oh ! Shoot I forgot , you go get freshen up ; I'll take the appointment" he told me .

" hmm... " replying I went to the washroom .

Entering the washroom , I stood in front of mirror , my face was looking like I was sick since so many days with eyes swollen , tears dried up at my cheeks . I washed my face and moved to pick the towel when , I tripped on the mat but balanced my self by holding towel stand . In reflex , my hands went to my belly holding onto it tightly as if I was trying to protect the baby .

" I am sorry , sorry baby , are you alright ? " I spoke , realising that it won't reply .

You shouldn't get attached to it ; its going to be taken away from you in few months its not your baby ; my subconscious mind told me .