Mercenary |BTS JIMIN MERCENARY FF|

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'I love you.'

His words echoed in my mind so loudly that I was sure I'm asleep.

'I love you, Rain. I've never loved anyone or anything, but I love you.'

'Jimin... please tell me you're not just lying to me. Please tell me I'm not imagining this.' The ball in the back of my throat is making it hard to even breathe. I want this to be true so badly.

'I lied before. When I said I didn't want you. When I said I felt nothing. I lied. But I'm not lying now. I love you.' He kissed me deeply, moving once again.

He pulled and gripped on me like I was going to disappear. He left kisses wherever his lips could reach. And I did the same.

'Are you there?' He whispered into my ear, probably feeling me tighten around him.

'Y-yes.' I hid my face in his neck, biting gently into his shoulder to muffle myself as I reached the peak

'Can you hold on a bit longer for me? I don't want this to end yet.' He spoke into my ear

'Please.' I clung on him. 'Please, don't stop.'

And it sure didn't end for a while longer. He kept slowing down every time he felt like he's too close, until he couldn't handle anymore and he let himself go over the same line, moaning lowly into my ear, trying to stay quiet just the same.

'I think I should turn off my lights more often.' I giggle, listening to both of our breathing

He laughed quietly next to me, calling me an idiot.

'Did you really mean it? Do you- do you love me?' I asked him after we've both been quiet for a minute or so

'I do. As much as I tried not to, and denied it to myself and everyone else, I do.' He spoke softly

'Is that why you kept telling me all those things? About hating me and not wanting anything to do with me?'

'I had to. I should have kept doing that. Instead, I did this.' He sighs deeply

'Why? If I love you, and you love me, why would you-'

'Because it's not good for you.' He cuts me off. 'I'm-' He exhales deeply. 'I'm not good for you.'

'Jimin, don't say that.' I pull myself closer, nuzzling into his chest. 'I want to be with you.'

'I want that, too, you have no idea just how much. But we can't. Every moment you even know me is a danger to your life. Being with me is signing your own death sentence.'

'Then let me sign it. I don't care.' I squeeze him a bit tighter

'You might be ready to sign that, but I'm not. If anything happened to you because of me, I could not live with myself. And something will definitely happen to you if you're with me. Without a doubt. I have a lot of enemies, Rain. People who are always after me and are watching me. First sign of you, and you would be killed within days. Possibly hours. I am not letting that happen.' He sounded stern, then hugged me back. 'You're not the only one ready to die. I would take my death over yours any moment.'

'What now, then? Are we supposed to pretend none of this ever happened? Am I supposed to pretend that I don't love you? That you don't love me?' I ask as I feel that ball in my throat coming back

'You're gonna leave. You're gonna go far away. Go to Europe like you said you would. As far away from me as possible. Get a new name. A new life. Go, and never look back.'

'No.' I cry. 'I'm not leaving you.'

'You have to if you want to live. Forget about me. Forget I exist. Please.' He kissed my forehead, pressing my face to his chest desperately. 'Please be safe. Live. For both of us.'