The moment I woke up, I instantly felt this craving for giving in to all my excuses and victim skills I had required in my miserable existence.
But the memory of Una's eyes so full of wonder and faith in me prevented me from returning into my personal darkness.
I had already let down too many people too often to keep going on like that.
So I turned on my laptop to spend the next hours finding out what had happened to Cass and where she was.
I was about to give up when I finally came across a little article in a local paper about a girl hit by a car, the driver of which had fled the scene of the accident.
That was when the stinging pain in my temples set in. Nausea got hold of me and I didn't know what I should react to first.
A minute - or so - later I woke up on the floor, still overwhelmed by this throbbing pain. Then slowly, inch by inch a shudder crawled up my back, straight into my neck, accompanied by a flashback that should have tipped me over the edge.
I saw myself sneaking out of my and Abby's flat to get into the car heading off anywhere, just to get out of the future I hadn't wanted to be a part of. Next I remembered getting totally pissed in this bar in a small town. What came afterwards remained a bit blurry, but there it was.
This bump. On the road.
Due to the state I was in, it was even hard enough for me to recognize any disturbance. But it had never occured to me that the bump I had felt, could have been caused by an actual human being that I had overrun.
When I realised what I had done, I was sure that I had actually reached the lowest point of my life. I fell down to my knees and started to cry.
My former self who had committed all these terrible crimes would have used this opportunity to bathe in self-pity and self-loathing.
But the lurking image of Una's blue eyes was like a north star to my remaining glimpse of sanity. So I decided to get all-in and went straight back to Jenifer.
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UNA
SpiritualUna is an ordinary high school girl. At least she thought so. Until strange things start to happen. As suddenly her best friend disappears, she finally realizes that there is more at stake. When eventually visions of her dying father begin to haunt...