Jay Cee El

Five // June 27th

[rewritten]

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Liz's P.O.V

"No mom, I don't want to go. I changed my mind." I said, sitting down on the chair at the kitchen table.

It was nearing three o'clock in the morning and my family was getting ready to make the drive down to Rhode Island for the X Factor audition. It was now the twenty seventh of June and the day of my audition. The actual doors don't open until nine in the morning, but because of the five hour journey we have to get up incredibly early. Just as I predicated, I was beginning to chicken out on the actual day. I was so worried that the judges would say no to me. That would tear me apart and I don't know if I would be able to ever sing again. This is my dream and I'm not sure if I'm ready to know if it can come true or not.

"Liz, honey, I know that you're growing nervous for this. But you need to do it. This is something that if you don't do it, you are going to regret it so much when you're older." Mom said. I sighed and stood up, shaking my head and leaving the room. She didn't understand. She had no idea what could go wrong, or the embarrassment that came with receiving four no's. I don't think that my mom can never understand it. Don't get me wrong, I love her. I love her so much and I'm close with her, but she just doesn't understand my dream to being a professional singer. She supports it, but doesn't understand it.

I made my way up to my room, where Natalie's stuff was messily tossed around on the floor. The crazy girl I called my best friend was in the bathroom, getting ready to come with us to Rhode Island. I sat down on my unmade bed and leaned back, setting my hand on my stomach as if I could feel the butterflies in it.

Auditioning for the X Factor is something that I've wanted to do for a long, long time. I want to sing, I want to sell out arenas and stadiums. I want people to buy my albums and come to meet and greets. I want to help people with my music the way other's have helped me. It all rests on Simon, Demi, Brittany, and L.A today. I could be put through to boot camp or I could be sent home. It all comes down to today.

While I was contemplating this huge life decision, I heard the door to my room being pushed open. My eyes opened and I watched Kacey walk into the room. She saw me on the bed and came over to me, climbing up until she was sitting down next to me. Her dirty blonde hair fell over her shoulder as she looked down at me, her brown eyes meeting my blue ones.

"Mommy said you were nervous." She said.

"I am, Kac." I said, closing my eyes again.

"Do you want my good luck charm?" She asked.

"I don't think your stuffed panda can help today, but thank you." I said, a hint of a smile tinting on my face.

"Oh… well I'll tell you what my teacher said last week when we were all nervous about the end of the school year. She said that you can never fly if you're too afraid to fall." She said.

My eyes opened and I looked over at the intelligent eight year old. Kacey was acting as if she didn't just give me life advice, instead the was playing with the sequins on my blanket. I sat up and wrapped my arms around her, listening to her giggle. She hugged me back for a brief moment, before squirming around in my arms to be let go. She quickly said that she was going to go get her good luck charm and she was then out of the room.

What Kacey said was sticking to my head. I can't fly if I am too afraid to fall. I can never become the singer I want to be if I never try. If I get no's then I will just keep singing and try again. I'll try and try until I get it. I can't be afraid to fail if I won't try. I need to do this, I need to do this for me and for my future career. I can't chicken out now, mom's right, I'll only regret it later on.