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Just a warning. My internet is still not on.... sigh

So this was typed on my phone. So there will probably be a lot of mistakes. I didn't want to make you guys wait any longer for an update. So here you go.

{Y/N's POV}

"Look, i know you are scared. Life may not be going the way you want it to-"

I cut Jimin off. "I don't know if i have a way i would like my life to go inside my head."

He rolls his eyes. "Shut up and stop correcting me."

I laugh, nodding. "Yes sir."

With that, he goes back to what he was saying before i interrupted him. "What i meant is, things might be difficult for you now. But your the strongest person i know. If you really want to get through this i know you will be able to. Your the strongest person i know." He says, a proud smile filling his features. Finding himself happily content with his own words.

"Then you obviously don't know many people."

Jimin sighs, letting his face fall into his hands. "Why must you be so pessimistic?"

I know at times my negative attitude towards... well everything can get on his nerves. He is the type to try his best to cheer me up. When he speaks its sort of like reading some sort of card. Its positive and cheerful. Sometimes im happy to have it, and sometimes i would rather have someone who tells me the truth about whats going on.

Jimin is very kind. And he always wants to see me smile. Even if that means lying to me. He will shower me with happy thoughts and tell me or a perfect future. He is the kind of person to stand and tell you everything is going to be okay, even when they know it might not be. As long as it makes you happy for that moment.

And even though that statement annoys me, i can admit that every now and then i just want to let reality slip away. And i would sit back and let him lie to me, happily accepting his words even though deep down i knew them not to be true. Nevertheless, they were soothing for the moment.

I guess after everything that happened. I just wanted someone to lie to me.

To paint a pretty picture in my mind and let me believe it to be true. At least for the time being.

Maybe that's why i didn't go to Taehyung or Jungkook with my problems this time.

Jungkook would make jokes and try to make me smile. He would dance around the actual situation for as long as he could until it finally became time to talk about what was going on. From there on he would be a silent as a mouse, letting me rat on and on about everything going on in my life. And then somehow find a way to relate to it. I think the lives we live are a bit alike, me and him.

But I'm afraid I'm not in the mood to suffer through his jokes. Usually, i can take them well and laugh along with him. He gets me to smile and forget about everything i went through for the moment, and im thankful for that. Maybe its more than just the jokes im worried about. Maybe I'm just worried about him.

Jungkook goes through a lot, and i know he has trouble telling me about his problems. Telling anyone. But i can tell he is having a hard time.

And he just sits back and lets me go on and on about my problems. He takes time and thinks very closely about his words in an attempt not to hurt me. Fearing that i might take some things thr wrong way. He is very cautious when talking to me. At least when im upset.

And i sometimes feel like im taking advantage of him. Or maybe im making what hes going through worse. Me and him go through a lot of the same things. The same things in our own ways. He wants to block it all out. To never have to deal with it. Because in his head, if he pays no attention and runs from his problems, then they will hurt him less. Or at least that's what he hopes.

So i sometimes worry that when i come to him with my problems, that are so similar to his. I can be forcing him to face things he doesn't want to.

So i will try my best to stay away from him.

At least when it comes to my problems.

And then there's Taehyung....

Taehyungs POV

I place my hand up in defense in an attempt to separate the two. I try my very best to reason with him, but he doesn't seem to be in the mood to listen to my words.

Jungkooks father puffs his chest out trying to make me understand that hes not messing around. But neither am i. I may not be as big and i doubt im as strong. But i will do everything in my power to keep Jungkook safe.

"Look, i know your upset. I get that. He can be a pain in the ass sometimes. But lets not do anything you will regret. Im begging you." I say, trying my best to keep his father back as Jungkook finally pulls himself from the car, bag in hand.

Jungkooks father pushes me back a bit, ad i do my best to regain my balance quickly. But he soon takes hold of my shirt tightly, looking down at me with anger in his eyes. "I don't take orders from boys who beg." He speaks in a low growl before pushing me again.

Jungkooks mother takes his arm and pulls him back lightly. But her strength is no match for his. "Please stop, just let him go."

When i look back at Jungkook i see the thing in his eyes that i hate seeing. Ive seen him stand up to many people in his life. He isn't one to let people walk over him or order him around. He is strong and strong-willed.

But one person who can always inlist this look in his eyes is his father.

Its fear.

Im sorry this chapter wasn't super long guys but im trying my very best. Love you guys so much~ Livvy