Paragon (6th Book of DT) Yaoi

60: COCO (END)

You chose Chaos over Eli yet you are regretting it now," Caleb commented in the midst of my tale. "Is it safe to say that the Gods of Eli, specifically Phaenar, had no association whatsoever with Imjir?" he asked me striking the exact painful string in the core of my chronicle.

I released a trembling sigh and I felt Thomas tighten his hold around me. I looked over the people listening to me, waiting eagerly for my reply and I nodded.

"They were innocent..."

They were clean and blameless. They didn't deserve to meet me.

I recollected the events of that day, the day that I released darkness throughout Eli. It first started with a small fire that then spread across the fertile land burning life in the planet. My target was Uther.

With those powerful and perdurable flames, smoke rose from the burning life and suffocated Exthys. The winds carried his wheezes assuring my remorseful heart that he suffered from his own weakness. The rising smoke and heated crown of fire created storm clouds that then released an outpour of rain that flooded every island to endanger Isher. As the tides continue to rise, so was every drop of regrets I have for doing this.

The asteroid was my card against Phaenar. I placed it at the skies so that it can release murk that can overpower the light that the Goddess provided. The planet started to become cold and the land was beginning to get covered in ice. The once bright and ebullient Eli became soundless and lonely yet I still hoped.

I still hoped that there was still a shed of light for me.

"You did not make sure that they are dead," Lucian intruded. His monotone voice and heartless statement caught the attention of everyone.

"You want them dead bae?!" Samael asked him with a snort. Lucian bored his eyes at me, observing me with his heedful eyes.

"No, but he seemed to be more efficient before. He assured absolute death whenever he desired it but when he was destroying Eli, he made a reckless plan. He could have dealt with the Gods personally but he merely started a forest fire even when he knew that it would take more than that to kill them."

I gave Lucian a smile behind my mask and squeezed my knee from the guilt-feeling and frustrations.

"I didn't want them to perish..." I confessed. "But you already know that don't you, Your Majesty?"

My actions could be considered merciful from what I can really do. I wanted them to survive. I wanted them to stop me. I needed them to end me.

The King of Eli merely stared back at me with eyes that seem to be well acquainted with pain and suffering and I continued to lay the last drops of my tale.

The Gods didn't die but I wiped out almost everything in the planet.

They caught the culprit who attempted to disrupt the peace in their planet.

They caught the liar.

They caught the pretender.

They caught...me.

I was besieged with betrayed eyes yet still loving ones.

I was confused.

Deep inside I was frustrated with the love that they were showing me because they were supposed to be my enemies. They were supposed to abhor me. They were supposed to act in a way that would justify my actions yet they were acting like I was still part of their family.