Herophine: Josephine Langford and Hero Fiennes Tiffin

Chapter 53

Jo pov

I look over at hero as I wait for his response the marriage counselor just asked him.

"Do I think jo is attractive still? What kind of question is that" he says to our marriage counselor named Amy.

"She's my wife. Of course I find her attractive" he says

"Sometimes un marriages, especially when there's kids involved, partners can lose attractiveness from one another, but all couples are different" she says

"Now let me ask you this, how's your sex life" she says

"Pretty much existent since I have this" I say pointing to my belly

"Why is our sex life relevant? We just want to know what can help us get our marriage back on track" hero says

"Besides the pregnancy, was your sex life enjoyable?" She continues

"For the most part yes. It's hard to have great sex though when you have crying toddlers needing your attention every time of the day" I answer and Amy nods.

"Josephine, I'm getting some tension in your voice every time you bring up this pregnancy and anything involving being a mother, does motherhood treat you kindly or do you find it challenging" She asks

"I love our kids, especially this one" I say putting a hand on my belly

"I just sometimes feel like I was robbed of an actual young adult life" I say and hero turns to me

"I've been through miscarriages, pregnancy after pregnancy, a young marriage, my fathers death, cancer and I feel like that all piled up and gave me no time for myself" I say

"Hero do you feel the same way" she asks

"I think I will never understand what Jo has been through. I tell her everyday she's a super mum. There's no one that can do it like her. I just sometimes feel like she hates the life we have, that she wishes she could start all over and do things differently" he says

"I love our life. We have amazing kids. Hero, I love you so much and I'm sorry if I come across like that. Sometimes it's just overwhelming and I feel like I need a break" I say and he holds my hand

"Just tell me that" he says and I sigh

"I don't need to tell you. I just need you to realize it, like the kids are really hard today, let me help jo out. I need you to be on the same page" I say

"I'm not a mind reader" hero says a little annoyed this time

"It's common sense" I say back

"And this is why we argue" hero says turning to Amy

"Let me ask you this how do you resolve an argument like this" she asks

"Sex" I simply say

"Pretty much" hero says arguing

"Would you say you argue to have sex" she asks and I shake my head no

"It just kind of happens after an argument" I say

"Do you feel love when you're doing it" she asks

"It's more of an act of forgiveness. Of course we love each other but I think we just do it to make up" I say and hero nods

"We're out of time for today's session but I want you two to work on less makeup sex and find some sex that makes you two find pure love and passion for one another. Maybe have the kids stay with the grandparents and have a night for yourselves" she says

"I feel like your main issue is not having that 1 on 1 time together. Having kids can do that to a marriage. It's not that you don't love them. It's just hard for the two of you to connect the way you used to" She adds

"So our homework is to practice having sex" hero questions and she simply nods

"I know, sounds a little morbid but trust me, I think this is what you need, am I correct on that Josephine" she says winking to me

"Yes you are" I tell her and we thank her, sign up for our next session then head on our way home.
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Hero leans down to kiss me and our heads bump. We just got the kids to bed and are trying to practice our homework assigned by Dr. Amy tonight but it's just not working the way we would hope.

Hero pulls out of me and we sit quietly next to each other.

I hold the sheets close to my chest and hold my throbbing head.

"Are you okay" he asks lifting my head

"That was not fun" I whisper and he looks at me and chuckles

"We're you even enjoying that because I wasn't" he simply says and I lay my head on him and giggle

"Where are we going wrong" I whisper and he kisses my head

"Let's get some rest. There's always tomorrow" he says and we lay in each other's arms.
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I walk into a candle lit house with rose petals that lead to our bedroom.

The house is complete silence so the kids are definitely not here.

I put the groceries in my arms on the kitchen counter and follow the petals to the room.

I open the door and hero is sitting on our bed with roses.

More to come...

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