"Chhu loon tujhe jaise koi
Chand ko chhuna chaahe
Chaahun tujhe jaise koi
Baccha khilona chaahe
Fiqar ki raat mein
Tu sukoon ki neend hai
Patjhad ke mausam mein tu
Baarish ki pehli boond hai"
"Abhi bhi nhi bolegi?" He whispered, his husky tone pricking each hair on my body. "Kya?" I ask deciding to let the words play out on their own. He chuckled softly nuzzling against my neck the vibrations further deepening my mind into emotion.
Si - "Jab pyaar krti hai toh bolna kyun nhi hai?"
S - "Challenge itni aasani se nhi haarungi. Tune bulwana hai toh bulwake dikha."
"Ek last memory refresh kr skte hai yaha?" He asked suddenly looking up into the sky, the rain drops pattering against his skin. "Kaunsi?" I revert looking up slightly myself. He smiled looking back into my eyes, bending forward close enough to make them shut on their own. My lips lay ajar feeling his right along the verge of my own. I smiled into it letting the flashbacks play right through my mind as he continued to nibble against my lip.
Flashback :
Si - "Sorry na baby? Mujhe sch mein nhi pta tha ki woh-"
"Stop it! Please Sidharth bas kr. Woh sahi hi keh rahi thi. Im no one to stop you or her from hugging or for the matter of fact doing whatever comes to either of your minds. Who am I to you? Jawaab hai? You call me any and every nickname a boyfriend would call his girl pr commit krne se issue hai? Hugs, cuddles, jealousy sab krna hai lekin confess krne pe zubaan kyun atqk jaati hai teri? Muh se nhi bola jaata toh likh k hi dede, at least kuch toh ho mere pass yeh samajhne k liye ki tu mujhe kya samajhta hai" I shriek stomping out of his car. We were supposed to be having a date. A beach date to be exact. But it took one pick at what we had to fuck up my mood. I knew he loved me. Perhaps more than what I love him but how much longer was I supposed to take bullshit his exs and friends would through at us? I pace towards the small cliff, gasping as I feel myself being lifted off of the ground. The urgency of it taking me by surprise. I keep my eyes closed taking a deep breath knowing well enough who it was.
"Mere hug ya cuddle ya thoda sa jealous hone se tujhe problem hai?" He asked sitting down a foot away from the ledge, letting his calves hang over. I was held tightly against his chest, my legs swung over his lap. "Tere bol na paane se problem hai. Mujhe ek "I love you" nhi bola jaata terese aur main na bolu thodi der toh dimaag sada kr baith jayega." I mumble back keeping my gaze intact.
Si - "Agar bol du toh problem solved?"
S - "Nhi fir Taj Mahal bnane ki demand rakhungi. Woh bnn jye jab, tab problem solved kyunki fir sab waha aa kr dekh skte hai ki tune pyaar mein mere liye kya kiya"
"Abe? Gadhi pyaar main tere se -" he paused letting a soft smile curve his lips the light blush very clear. "Bas ruk gya? Tape nikal ke dubara chla ke dekho... ya jahan se fill krwayi thi unki pucho ki poora bhara bhi tha yaha yahi. Kutta. Baat hi nhi krni mujhe tere se." I huff looking down at the beach below. I didn't even try squirming out of his hold knowing it was tight enough to not even let me move a muscle. "Toh tu hi bta lok dikhava kyun karun? Jab bhi bolunga toh tujhe akeli ko bolunga na... aise sab k liye announce krna -"
S - "Perfect. Kal se jo sab ldko ko tune dra k door kiya hai, main unse patchup krlungi. Lok dikhava thodi zaroori hai. Yeh relationship bas phone tak seemat rakhenge okay?"
Si - "Phenk dunga yahi se"
S - "Aur fir khud kud jayega bachane. Nice idea kissa hi khatam dono ka. Aaya bada "phenk dunga-"
Si - "Zyada nhi ho raha tera ab?"
S - "Dono ka pyaar agar main akeli krti hu toh gussa bhi mujhe hi krne de"
Si - "Baby... yr itna bhi kya hogya? Kyun bhadak rahi hai mere pe? Maine nhi kaha na tujhe waha se jaane k liye?"
S - "Haan sorry tune toh hath pakad k rok liya tha na? Main bhul gyi"
"Fuck..." he mumbled under his breath feeling the sudden rain drops trickling down the both of us. Itd been misty and grey the whole morning but neither of us had planned for a storm. I hid further into him not wanting my pale pink dress to drench. He smiled pulling up his legs, huddling me into himself. "Gussa pause kr le thodi der?" He whispered slightly tugging my ear with his lips.
S - "Kyun?"
He shook his head, the smile still a constant before turning me to straddle him, pulling me closer against himself as if it was even possible. I thanked myself for choosing the knee length dress this morning, it was practically the only thing that kept my lower half from being on complete display. I looked at him questionably, reading the only answers his eyes would give. "Can I?" He asked rubbing the pad of his thumb along the line of my lips. My eyes widened, cheeks heating up the same moment. We'd been close ... hugs, cuddles or even just sitting like we were right now but we hadnt had our first kiss yet. My first first kiss. He leaned forward repeating his question, the softness of his voice making me tremble. "Baby? Answer.." he mumbled his lips only an inch away from mine. I open my eyes looking into his slightly pushing back, my hands tight against his shoulders. "Nhi krna toh bhi theek hai, I dont want to make you-" I pause him between his words keeping my finger against his lip.
S - "Kr skta hai... pr pehle bol. Just once Sidharth- please?"
Si - "Yr..tujhe pta hai na? Or do you not feel it from my actions?"
S - "Pta hai pr ek baar sun na hai please? Bas ek baar I love you keh de? Agar nhi krta toh bhi bolde lekin kuch toh bol"
He sighed, not out of frustration. The look on his face was more of what a shy person had while getting up to give a solo 10 minute presentation. I felt his hands tighten against my back pulling me back in closer. My face back to being only an inch away from his. His breaths fanned my lips, mine clearly doing the same. "I love you" he murmured soft enough to almost be inaudible. The words created a havoc inside me letting my eyes clench, the eye contact getting too much to handle. My heart fluttered crazily, I knew my face was red, his soft laugh confirmed it. I open my eyes slightly looking at his own flushed face, leaning back in to where he'd stopped last time. I didn't know how to get myself to initiate it. He smiled closing the gap, both our eyes closing the moment the lips met. He sucked my lips pinching me slightly to make me respond. I was in daze, the feeling so unfamiliar but engulfing. My stomach ran miles feeling his lips tug my own.
Si - "teri line tere pe use kru toh chalega? No kisses until you say it?"
S - "Tujhe zyada problem hogi. Neend mein tune hi ki pehle"
"Haan aur woh Bachelorette ki raat bhi maine hi ki thi na?" He questioned the smug smirk back against his lips.
S - "Ab toh pakka no kisses until tu bulwa nhj leta"
"Abey eh?! No way.. I was just kidding baby. Tera hu.. jo mrzi kr. Actions kaafi hai mere liye.. kasam hai tujhe yeh nhi kregi" he reverted, saying words the exact opposite of what I'd expected. I chuckled giving him a nod. I wondered slightly why he hadnt used the same to make me say it. He knew well enough that I would if he'd asked like that. He also knew that all he had to do was make desire wash over the little bit of the stance I had in front of his built in aura. Perhaps he wanted me to say it myself. Not under any pressure. The thought made my heart swell. Maybe he was already trying hard enough.... but-
Since when had my love become conditional? Why was I waiting for him to formally ask me to say something I said in my mind each and every time he said it? What good were these imposed restrictions even gonna do?!
"Tere bin ek din jaise sau saal hai
Anjaam hai tay mera Hona tumhe hai mera
Jitni bhi hon dooriyan filhaal hain
Yeh dooriyaan filhaal hain"
