Jennie POV
There are times that we love so much and we lose ourselves in our own emotions. So, I have to remind myself every day that all that we have right now doesn't have a guarantee... yet.
I don't know if my decision was right, but I just can't let my guard down. Not again. I'm not sure if she loves me for real or if she just needs me by her side to be her temporary source of happiness.
I woke up without her by my side. I look around and see her talking on her phone, her back facing me, pushing herself back and forth from the railings of my balcony. She's been like this for a few days now and I don't understand why. We almost have the same professors and same academic requirements. Unlike Jisoo, she's not a candidate for cum laude. Why is she so stressed out?
Lately, she's not the same spontaneous Lisa I knew a few months ago.
The conversation looks serious so I did not bother to go near her and just do my morning routines.
A few moments later I heard her knock on my bathroom door. "Jen" she called.
"I uh I need to go, is it okay if I won't join you for breakfast?" I heard her faint voice behind my door.
"I'm almost done, can you wait for me?" truth is I just got started.
"As much as I want to but this one can't wait. I really need to go, Love, I... I'll see you at KU." then I heard my door shut. She left.
A bitter scoff came out of my mouth. "Love? That's not me", I mumble while playing with the water and bubbles in my tub.
Not gonna lie, I'm used to eating breakfast with her, but I have to understand that we can't do that every day. This is the first since we started that habit.
After taking a hot relaxing bath I grabbed my towel to dry my body and wrap it in my hair and wear my bathrobe. I wipe the mist on my mirror to see my reflection and saw red marks on my chest, it doesn't bother me at all. I slowly shook my head with a smile plastered on my face, I guess I have to get used to this too. Then I inched closer to the mirror to look at my face and I noticed a big dark red mark on my neck. It's huge.
Oh, fuck!
What kind of mouth do you have Manoban! I said while inspecting the kiss mark she left. How am I going to remove this? Then I saw another red mark on the other side.
Holy shit!
Damn it! How am I going to hide these?! It's summertime, I will look like an idiot if I will cover this with a scarf.
At KU...
I am walking down the hallway when someone clings to my arm, It's Rosie.
"Hey, how are you? Did you guys fight? To tell you honestly, I feel scared when I saw Lisa on the dancefloor looking at you and Mi..." she stopped what she was about to say and stepped in front of me and squinted her eyes as she scan my body from head to toe.
"Wait..." she tilted her head to her side looking at me with a crooked smile.
"What?" I asked.
"I bet your punishment was so wild last night," she said bobbing her head and biting her lips to repress herself to laugh while pinching the soft fabric of my cream short sleeve turtle neck tops.
I snickered when I get what she was trying to point out. "Don't, just don't go there Rosie." giving her a knowing look. Eyes wide.
Then she tilted her head to the other side and waved her hand while wetting her lips. I turn my head to look who's behind me, thinking why is she smiling like a fool. And I saw Lisa wearing a white long sleeve turtle neck paired with black denim pants. Shit did I leave marks too?
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What if? - Jenlisa
Fanfiction"Rejection is way better than what-ifs Jennie," I said and glance at her. "You need to, try it first at least," she muttered. "You think? Even if I know that it'll hurt me in the process?" I asked chuckling. "There are things better left unsaid" I a...
