What if? - Jenlisa

Chapter 36 - Distance

Rosie POV

I didn't know what had come over me. One moment we were laughing and goofing around, and the next thing I know, my lips were on her lips. I freakin' kissed Jisoo!

It caught me off-guard. I wasn't planning for a romantic kiss at all, just a playful peck on her lips. But as soon as our lips touched, it was like bam! - sparks were flying and she kissed back with equal fervor! I couldn't resist at that moment. What was I supposed to do? I mean, I really like her. Can you blame me?

After that kiss, my mind was a mess. All sorts of feelings were swirling around inside me like a tornado. I tried to push them down, bury them deep, but they wouldn't go away. That kiss changed everything. It was like a switch flipped and suddenly all my suppressed feelings for her came rushing to the surface. I couldn't ignore them anymore.

I was hit with a wave of emotions - surprised that I had the guts to make a move, thrilled when she kissed me back, and scared when I saw her expression after we pulled away. It was like jumping off a cliff without a safety net. The initial rush was incredible, but the landing was brutal. I feel like I'm lying on the ground, completely wrecked.

The next day at work, I was determined to act as if nothing had happened between us. I smiled and said hello like I always do, hoping that time would somehow heal the awkwardness between us. I tried my best to focus on what I do and push those confusing thoughts out of my mind.

But...

It wasn't easy...

Every time Jisoo walks by my desk, my heart would beat a little faster. Every time our eyes meet, I could feel the heat rising to my cheeks. When she wraps her arm around my shoulder, I had to fight the urge to wrap my arms around her and never let go. I even found myself smiling from ear to ear, for no apparent reason. And whenever she smiles or laugh, my heart would do this weird little flip-flop thing that made me feel like a lovesick girl.

I did my best to stay away from her in the days that followed, but it was no use. We share an office and have the same circle of friends, so we kept running into each other or ending up at the same table for lunch. The air was thick with tension, and it was clear that things between us had shifted, but we were both avoiding the elephant in the room.

Seeing her again at work is becoming a daily struggle, pretending as if nothing happened and trying to act cool around her.

We used to spend a lot of time together, but now it's like I'm regressing back to my old ways - pulling away. My walls are up again like there was an added layer of complexity between us. This is my only way to cope, I've been trying my best to avoid being alone with her, hoping that distance might help me shake off these intense emotions.

I've done this before, I can do this again. But is that really what I want?

"Chipmunk! Hold it!" Just my luck!

"Thanks," Jisoo said and pressed the close button. I couldn't help but feel a rush of emotions as she stood there, trying to straighten her khaki trench coat. Fixing its collar.

"Mmmhmm" I just hummed.

"So, TGIF!" she chuckles. "Our first week of internship feels like months!" The ride in this elevator feels like forever!

"Yeah, feels like forever. Can't wait to spend my weekend with my Baby."

"What?!" she asked with a crease on her brows. "Are we talking about the same guy?" she asked again.

"Oh no, this one is different." I said giving her a knowing look and a smirk on my lips. "I can be with this one forever. If I could... I would!" I giggle as I lean on the corner of the elevator.