Stay (BTS x Reader-Polyamorous romance)

Chapter 58

Jungkook POV:

"What do you think Noah? How about a grilled cheese for lunch? I think we have cookies too." I looked over at the little boy who was seated on the counter, swinging his thin legs.

"What's a grilled cheese?" Noah's question was confused and I couldn't help but feel a sense of pity for the sweet little guy who had missed out on so much.

"I'll show you." Pulling out a pan, bread and cheese, I held it up. "I'm going to make you Kookie's Sandwich Special. Now the secret to a great grilled cheese is this." I pulled out the jar of mayonnaise from the fridge and showed it to him. "Jin insists on using butter, but this adds a little more flavor.

Noah's eyes were wide and filled with interest as I began the process of making the sandwich. He watched my every move and it made my heart fill with love and adoration for the sweet kid. His eyes were on me the whole time and when I finished the sandwiches and handed one to him, he looked at it for a moment before taking a tiny bite. When the melted cheese hit his taste buds, his eyes went wide again and a huge smile crossed his face. "This is yummy!" I could see the delight on his face as he took an even bigger bite.

"They're pretty good, aren't they?" Noah nodded his head exuberantly at my question and I couldn't help but laugh. "Y/N likes her with tomatoes and pepper jack cheese, but this is my favorite."

"Pepper jack?"

"Yeah. It's a spicy cheese with peppers in it." Opening the fridge, I pulled out a plastic container of sliced chunks of cheese and handed him one.

Noah took it and bit into it, his little face scrunching up in disgust. Shaking his head, he handed it back to me. "Nuh uh. I don't like that one."

Tossing the chunk in the trash and sticking the rest in the fridge, I gave him a reassuring smile. "Don't worry. Not everyone does." Opening the cabinet, I took out a package of chocolate chip cookies and handed him one. "But everyone likes these."

Noah looked at the cookie hesitantly and bit into it, eyeing me as though he didn't trust me. His smile brightened and he nodded happily. "Yes! I love that!"

Grabbing several cookies, I set them on his little plastic Spiderman plate then took a few for myself. "What would you like to do after lunch?"

Noah tilted his head in thought. "Can we color?"

"Sure. I like to do that." Nodding in agreement, I grinned at him and took a bite of my own sandwich. The smile stayed on my face as we finished lunch and while I cleaned up the kitchen. As I was rinsing the last plate and loading it into the dishwasher, Noah ran to his room to get his coloring books and crayons.

Climbing onto the stool, Noah grinned and pushed the coloring book towards me, a hopeful smile on his face. Sitting down next to him, I looked at the picture he had chosen for me: Iron Man. Knowing why he chose that for me touched my heart and so much love filled me, threatening to overwhelm me.

As I sat there coloring with him, I thought about the day we had spent together. I had been worried at first that I would be a terrible dad, that I would do something wrong, but things had been going almost perfectly. After my mates all left, we had decided to watch a movie. He had cuddled up close to me on the sofa, snuggled under a blanket, his eyes wide and on the television. I felt a sense of sadness wash over me as I realized just how much he had missed, how much he had never been able to experience and the idea of it had made me almost sick to my stomach.

It made me think about the last few months with Y/N and how perfectly everything seemed to be going. I knew we had our struggles and misunderstandings early in the relationship, both with her not knowing she was my mate, to the whole thing with Jimin, to her being kidnapped by that shitty ex-boyfriend of hers. It amazed me just how forgiving she actually was, how she was willing to push aside the hurt we had caused, how she was so willing to let us in. Sometimes I believed we didn't deserve her, but when she hugged me or kissed me or told me she loved me, I knew I could never let her go.