Safe with me

Part 34

Since you asked so nicely,
Here's your long chapter that will probably never happen again... enjoy lol
(6k words)

Also I struggle with grammar and tenses and stuff so please ignore those mistakes it's harder to notice or fix in longer chapters. Thank you ❤️

TW: angst, trauma, minor flashbacks and violence.
(Happy ending)

"Natasha sweetheart, why don't you go see what's on television?" Wanda asked, pulling out ingredients from the fridge for dinner. "No wan' to." The girl pouted.

Her crayons and drawings were spread haphazardly across the kitchen table. She didn't feel like watching tv, or drawing, she didn't feel like doing anything. Lately Wanda has tried to spend as much time as possible with the redhead especially now that she and y/n have started "properly" dating.

She has been trying to explore more of Natasha's little side and bond with her better. Of course they had already built a good relationship but Wanda was more like an aunt figure rather than someone who was dating your caregiver, they went from maybe seeing each other an hour a day to at least 4 hours a day. But Natasha did not take this change well, she didn't know how to act around Wanda anymore.

There was no direct pressure from wanda to call her Mommy or to think of her in any way close to the way she loved y/n but Natasha still felt this anyway. She couldn't help but think Wanda would see her differently or maybe even y/n would. It didn't help that y/n wasn't here at that moment. They were supposed to be back that afternoon but they called and said the work was taking longer than usual.

Natasha was not happy about this fact.

She knew she was pushing it, she knew that Wanda was becoming slightly annoyed with her, even though she's pretty sure she wouldn't ever say that, especially when Natasha is little. She maybe should have waited until y/n could finish their work, before letting herself be little, or at least wait until Wanda was ready to give her the attention she needed. But with all of the confusion and missing y/n, nat couldn't help but go into her headspace.

It was also a weird revelation to her that sometimes she actually needs to be little. She's noticed that after a hard day it relaxes her to colour or to curl up in y/n's arms as they whisper comforting words to her, or laying in their arms drinking a bottle; Natasha hadn't ever truly realised just how much life can stress her out. Before she would just ignore it or bottle it up, it was nice to have found a way to relieve it.

Who knows maybe y/n could've checked that nat was feeling stable enough before they chose to go to work but Wanda agreed to look after her, claiming she needed to get to know her more anyway. Plus Wanda was a trustworthy person and they always got along. Why would y/n have reason to think something would go wrong? Wanda is their girlfriend, and y/n's pretty sure she will do anything for them or Natasha.

But at this point, it might have been better to just wait.

It's not that she doesn't like sitting with Wanda, she loves watching her cook. There was just something about it now that made it seem less normal. Even though the regular routine was in place everything felt... disorganised. Usually Nat had certain expectations for the day or for how she was to behave but today all those thoughts were foggy.

She knows that on the weekends Wanda will sometimes have work to do, and she's oddly content with just curling up on the couch at her side and watching a movie. She doesn't mind it because she knows Wanda would drop it all in a heartbeat if she thought Nat really needed her.

Wanda would sometimes stop doing whatever report she was writing and scrunch her nose at Nat to make her smile, or give her a warm smile, she'd take the time out of her day just to make Nat happy.