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A story about a girl that finally finds the will to live after years of being tormented by her ruthless past, just to have it reach to her once more, coming back with the same intensity of cruelty and terror and once again erasing her just bui...
° ° ° . . . I got no one else to use and you got nothing to lose, so go on and use me too. . .
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CHAPTER 64 —————
"Where is she?!"
"Was she alone?!"
"Where did she go?!!"
"How the fuck can you tell me you don't know with a straight face when I clearly told you to keep a close eye on her and not let her leave at any cost??!!"
"Beautiful? You okay?" I nodded as a mere mechanical replay. Their voices, their panicked faces, the betrayal and disheartening I read on them from far behind the wall of the corridor leading to the back exit wouldn't leave my mind. As much as I tried to push it at the back of my mind I couldn't.
I thought I was neutral when it came to them, or at least I was forcing myself to be. Turns out it took me a millisecond long glance at them to bring back that yearning for their company. I realized making them believe I was through with them wouldn't be as easy, when I couldn't even make myself believe that kind of lie.
"Soji, we need to leave now! They'll see you!"
"Just give me a moment San..."
I couldn't understand what was making it so hard, but I couldn't turn my eyes away. Surely it wasn't Taeyong's murdering gaze. Definitely wasn't Jaemin's hopeful eyes. And most certainly it wasn't Mark slamming one of the bodyguards against the wall, the second he realized I was out of reach again.
I had to feed myself the big fat lie all along the ride: I didn't feel the smallest bit of guilt watching Jaehyun smash his fist in the wall next to the bodyguard's face. The person that tends to be always calm and collected, yet managed to lose his composure so desperately. My heart definitely didn't break when Jaemin simply turned around and left. I've never seen him so hopeless, give up so easily. I didn't feel my eyes tear up hearing Taeyong's yells echo through the main hall. And no I didn't feel the bit of disappointment not seeing Jina with the four. I kind of hoped I'd at least see her from afar too.
"Soji, pull yourself together and tell me where to drive, damn it!" San's voice once again reached my ears, even though my hearing was off for a while. This time sounding a little angrier and that was understandable. If I had to drive in circles around not knowing where to go, I'd not just get mad, but kick the person that's ignoring me out too.
"I'm sorry..." I cleared my throat looking around to get the picture of where we currently were. "You know what high school I last attended?" A nod. "Good. Take me there."
