𝚒 𝚍𝚞𝚌𝚔𝚒𝚗𝚏 𝚑𝚊𝚝𝚠 𝚢𝚘𝚞 || yeongyu

𝖋𝖔𝖗𝖙𝖞 𝖘𝖎𝖝

yeonjun had refused to sleep, instead laying in beomgyu's bed and letting his mind wander. beomgyu had stayed asleep on yeonjun's body, occasionally twitching, but yeonjun would ease it immediately by running his hands through the younger's hair.

but as the hours went by and beomgyu stayed asleep, yeonjun too became drowsy, and had fallen asleep with both of his arms wrapped snugly around the younger.

soobin knew not to bother them, because if beomgyu was uncomfortable at any point, he would've been down the steps and out of the house. so he let the pair do what they were doing. in all honesty, he was beyond happy that beomgyu had decided to let yeonjun into his room, because he knew it was weighing on beomgyu the most out of everything.

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it was 10pm when beomgyu woke up, and he was shocked at how long he had slept upon checking the alarm clock by his bed. he also was shocked at how warm he was, and how comfortable.

his eyes wandered to where his face was laid, and with a growing smile, lifted his head to see yeonjun's sleeping face. his cheeks were slightly puffed, his lips drawn into a pout, his eyes resting comfortably. beomgyu was almost in awe of the boy's eyelashes, how long and nice they were.

beomgyu slowly pulled his body to a half-sitting position, noticing how yeonjun's face twitched and his eyebrows slowly settled over his eyes.

beomgyu sat up fully on his bed, unaware that yeonjun's hands were still resting around his waist. as beomgyu moved, yeonjun stirred in his sleep and subconsciously tightened his grip on beomgyu's waist, which made beomgyu's heart immediately sink.

his mind flashed back to xion and his breathing picked up, turning his head around to see yeonjun still asleep. his breathing was becoming quicker, and soon his eyes found yeonjun's hands lightly slung around his waist.

this calmed his heart a bit, but did nothing to save the nauseating fear that had presented itself in his stomach and mind. all he could think of was how xion treated him, how he had held his waist to keep him from escaping.

beomgyu took slow deep breaths to try to control his erratic gasps, but it only worsened them and he began to hyperventilate against his own will. he wasn't bothered by yeonjun's hands around him anymore, and in a way they sort of grounded him.

but his mind was already pushing past the fear and plunging him into terror.

tears streamed down his face and accompanied the heaving of his lungs, eyes blurry as he tried his best not to wake yeonjun.

which failed, as yeonjun began to come to due to the movement from beomgyu sitting up. he listened first before opening his eyes, faintly hearing sniffles and heavy breathing.

yeonjun's eyes shot open immediately and landed on beomgyu, who was sat up, body shaking. which immediately had yeonjun sitting up, his hands leaving beomgyu's waist to support himself.

beomgyu swiveled his head to face yeonjun, which allowed yeonjun to see the puddle of tears loitering in the younger's eyes. his heart immediately dropped and he was pulling beomgyu into a hug in a heartbeat, feeling the boy shake against him.

"beomgyu, hey, hey what's going on? did i do something?" yeonjun asked softly, subconsciously running his fingertips up and down beomgyu's back in an attempt to soothe his tears that had grown into sobs.

no words came out and beomgyu just whimpered in response, burying his face into yeonjun's neck as he cried. yeonjun could do nothing but hold him and whisper small comforting words, and wait for him to be ready to talk.

which finally came after a grueling five minutes of listening to the boy sob, which only broke yeonjun's heart further for the boy.

"fuck love.. i don't want n-none..." beomgyu whispered, which immediately perked yeonjun's ears up to pay more attention.