My Tainted Heart // Colby Brock - Healed Series

Chapter 42: Stay with me.

Its been all night and day. Colby hasnt answered any of our messages. Ive cried my eyes out to Kat. Everything in the house just reminds me of Colby. Ive begged him to come back. He hasnt even read the messages. He probably had turned his phone off.

"Its alright Eden." Kat said stroking my hair soothingly while we layed in me and Colbys bed. I was so exhausted from crying. My eyes were puffy, My cheeks stained with my tears, I was hurting physically and mentally.

I dont need this. Its Sam's birthday next week. If this isnt sorted by then its going to be a complete shit show.

I felt bad on Kat, She had to sit there and listen to me sobbing. Her shirt was wet from my tears.

"I just want him home." I said inbetween sobs. The sad thing is is that he probably isnt thinking the same. Its breaking my heart.

I feel like half of me is missing without him.

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I had eventually cried myself to sleep last night. I didnt think I'd ever do that again.

I woke up, My face felt puffy, My eyes hurt but most importantly I felt cold. My hands were freezing.

I sat up in bed, The curtains hadnt been closed so the morning light was shining in my room.

I got out of bed and found some clothes for me to wear. I wanted to go for a jog, Try and clear my mind of the fog thats clouding my brain.

I put on a sports bra, lululemon sports leggings, I put my hair up into a messy pony tail and put my airpod max's on. I pressed play on my spotify playlist and said goodbye to Sam and Kat and left the house with my keys.

I went for a jog, I had no idea where I would end up but I would obviously try and find my way back to the house.

I passed hundreds of houses and hundreds of people.

Each and every one of them have a different story, different background.

Its crazy to me that people I see have completely different lives to me.

My mind cant get around that.

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I got home eventually. Sam and Kat had gone out shopping for food and I just went upstairs to shower. I turned the shower on and I made sure the water was scalding hot.

I need the pain of the hot water to make me feel something.

I wiped off my remaining make up that I had on my face, Most of it had been cried off but there was still parts that remained.

I put my cotton pad in the trashcan and undressed myself and stepped into the steaming hot shower.

I had my phone connected to a speaker and it was playing all of my favourite songs off of spotify.

'Numb to the feeling' By chase atlantic started playing.

I love this song with my whole heart.

I shampooed my hair twice and washed it out. I put conditioner in my hair and put my hair up in a big claw clip so I could wash my body without the problem of my hair leaving conditioner all on my back.

I lathered my body in different body soaps. While reaching for my tree hut scrub a bottle fell down hitting the floor of the walk in shower.

I bent down to pick it up and wipe the soap off of it.

It was Colbys body wash.

I mean obviously its going to be in here. Its our Shower.

I closed the cap that had been left open and put it back on the shelf.