AMARAS POVwhen gavi finally decided to let me go , i stormed off , not bothering to return to watch the barcelona players train , no , i went directly to the parking lot where xavis second car stood , jamal and jude leaning against it . when they saw my tear stained face , i immediately got pulled into their warm embrace .
„love , what happened? who do i need to kill?"
„pablo"
that was the only word that escaped my mouth and they both already startet to ramble about him , insulting him in every possible way . jamal , being the one with a few more brain cells , asked me what happened and i just told them the last part where gavi grabbed my wrist . the part where he broke down infront of me was not found in my explanation because even though gavi is putting me through all of this hell , it was still something very private . panic attack was something he had quite a few times during our relationship or even before that and i know i wouldn't want anyone to tell other people , so i didn't tell them .
the ride back was silent , my tears just rolling down my cheeks . i don't even know why i am crying , i think i just miss how it was before .
when we arrived home , i told jude and jamal that we can go shopping for my birthday in an hour , i jut need some time .
the worst thing out of everything was , i was afraid of gavis touch now . his touch now reminds me too much of my father because he said the exact same things that my father always told me .
how can i ever come near him again? and now people would ask me ; but you basically hugged him before that , and yes , i am not denying that , but it was a whole different situation , in that moment he was weak and hurt and i cannot stand seeing people hurt so my adrenaline took over .
„you are such a useless kći! i wish you would just disappear! you only cost me and your mother money! don't you realize , djevojčura? you are the problem here!"
that's what he said and his cigarette landed in my forearm , leaving more and more scars each time .
my father was right when he said that someday the person who you love most , will realize how horrible i really am .
so they were both right . my father and gavi .
my mind was turned off and i grabbed my little pocket knife , which i hadn't used since 1 year .
that changed now .
JUDES POV | amys birthday
„happy birthday dear amy , happy birthday to you"
me and jamal lay down next to her witg me on the left and he on the right , singing for our favorite girl .
she woke up with a (forced) smile and pulled both of us to her chest .
„thank you so much"
amara kisses mine and jamals hair and i think she wanted to sleep again . we have plans for her , so that's not going to happen .
„amy wtf? are you really about to sleep again?"
„shh it's my birthday today"
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Fanfictionin which the girl that lost her parents moves to barcelonas trainer xavi and meets a boy that will be the love of her life , who happens to be a 18 years old barcelona player ... they fall inlove , break up and find someone new . but will they find...