Inner Thoughts

DELUSIONAL- Written by a friend

DELUSIONAL
Written by: JLA

How do I escape this DELULU?
I felt true love for her. How do I unlove her?
From someone: "You will know that its true love when you still love someone, even if he/she doesn't love you anymore or doesn't even love you, but you still choose to stay."

A year ago, I met this girl —a girl that I wouldn't expect to ravage me.
Yes, ravage me!
Categorizing myself as an innocent in love.
At the age of 26, NBSB and no experience at all.
But can't deny that I have crushes.
I am just like a teenager, going with the flow,
enjoying my life, hanging out with my friends.
Going on adventures, focusing on work, and providing for family...

Until I met her a year ago...
She was 7 years younger than me.
She was 18 and I was 25.
I am Pansexual and she's Bisexual.
I will not elaborate how I and her met and known each other.
Because just reminds me of my trauma.

Summarizing this story, she makes me fall in love with her.
She was broken from her ex-girlfriend the time we met.
Living together in the same roof,
I got to know her way too much.

She's sweet, kind, talented, loves to sing as I sang too,
loves to eat as it's my hobby.
That time she made me feel that she can be my CONFIDANT.
I feel free to tell her everything.
Everything that I kept for over 15 years of existence—
the fact that I am not who's my family wants to be.
She's the Girl who sees me for who I am, not the one I am pretending to be.

Together, we shared lots of moments.
She made me feel the love that I have ever felt before,
And in return, I cared and loved her like she was mine,

but I was STUPID!
I confessed with her, as I can't help falling in love,
but I was just busted.
She still loves her ex; our families won't accept us.
She said I was just overwhelmed, but no!
I know its TRUE LOVE as I still love her even though she pushes me away.

All along, I thought we had the same feeling,
but I was just a DELUSIONAL

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