You Light Up My Life

Kim Mi-Eun

"Appa! Umma!"

"Yes, baby?"

"I can't open.."

"Oh, let me open that."

"Thank you Umma."

"You're welcome my dear Mi-Eun!"

"Kibum.. please? Wake up now.."

I can hear someone crying.

"Kibummie.. Please?"

Is that Jonghyun?

"Baby, please?"

I tried to open my eyes. It works though I cannot see clearly. I can see the figure of my husband.

"Kibum.. You're awake." He said in surprise. "Let me call Dr. Lee first. Just stay awake, Kibummie. Please?" He said and I nodded. He left the room in a fast pace and went back after a mere seconds.

"What do you feel, Kibum?" Dr. Lee asked. "I'm o-okay. It hurts somewhere here..." I lightly patted my tummy and I felt no bump. I remember.. where is my baby? Where is my Mi-Eun?

I clutched on Jonghyun's shirt and he leaned on to hear my voice. "Where's the baby?" I asked and he gave me this sympathetic look. I widen my eyes in shock and he held my hands tightly.

"Jonghyun, where is our baby? Where is Mi-Eun?" I asked again and he didn't answer. I wanted to know. I really need to know what happened to her. I looked at Dr. Lee and he also gave me the same look.

"Umma.. Can you play with me?"

"Of course baby, what do you want me to do?"

"Catch me, Umma!"

"Why would I?"

"I spilled milk on your favorite bag."

"Why you little..."

"Umma.. Appa.. I love you."

"I love you too, Mi-Eun."

"Me too, Appa loves you so much."

"Thank you for making me, Umma.. Appa. I love you so much."

"Jonghyun... Where is Mi-Eun? What happened to her?" Onew took a step after hearing the conversation. He looked at Jonghyun and Dr. Lee.

"He has the right to know." He said. "Jonghyun? Just say it.."

"Bummie..." Jonghyun started and tighten his grip on my hands even more.

"Jong..."

I looked at his face and he started to tear up. Seeing him crying makes me also cry. I'm so worried for my baby. What happened to her?

"Mi-Eun... She's alive but... she has a lot of complications. Her heart is not normal, Bummie. She has Congenital Heart Disease in a critical stage. Bummie, our baby's life is in danger. She might die if it hasn't prevented.

I felt my heart drop. My baby's life is in danger. I felt guilty that I need to give birth to her despite that it's too early for her to go out. I felt guilty that I put myself first before her.

"What should we do?" I asked Dr. Lee.

"Since Mi-Eun is still not fully developed, we need to wait for her to develop. Right now, all we need is miracle. Don't worry, Kibum. I'll do the best that I can."

I let my tears fell down from my eyes. Dr. Lee is right. There's nothing that I can do but just to ask some miracles from God. He is the only one who can help us. Only Him...