You Light Up My Life

The Reason

"Taeyeon? Taeyeon?" Onew called out from the backyard of the house. As he entered inside, he was surprised when he saw Taeyeon sitting on the couch, her hands covering her face which seemingly looks like she's crying.

"Taeyeon? What happened? Why are you crying?" Onew asked in concern but when her head lifted up, he immediately shut up because of her deadly glares. She's scary indeed.

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"Tell you what?"

"What? About you and Dr. Joon." Taeyeon stood up from the couch. She put her hands on her hips and starts walking back and forth.

"Taeyeon..."

"Jinki.. I know that you didn't like me from the start but.."

"Tae- What?"

"I knew you really don't like me, that you want to marry me because you want something from me but you lied to me about your real identity plus with our bestfriend Joon. Onew why? Why can't you love me? Even from the start, I do love you. You always ignore me whenever I call you when we're young. You always go to Joon whenever I ask you to play with me. You don't even know that I exist before. I tried so hard so that you'll notice me someday. I studied hard, became a doctor and yes, my goal in life was achieved when you finally noticed me but then when I find out about you and Joon, I felt terrible. I felt like a loser again. I felt like I lost you. Onew, why? Why with Joon?" Taeyeon stopped walking as she faced Onew. The guy was puzzled as he felt his lips being kissed by the crying woman. Taeyeon pulled away harshly and gave Onew a sarcastic smile. Onew is still confused on what is happening to her but he decided remain silent.

"I love you Onew but I don't want you to get hurt because of me." She said and cupped Onew's face. The latter frowned at the statement and tried to remove her hands away from him to clarify what she's talking about.

"What are you saying?"

"I know that it's hard for me to do this but... I can't marry you Go back to Joon if you want to."

"Are you sure?" Onew asked. Taeyeon nodded and turned around, walked to the bathroom and locked the door. She cried her tears out inside her room but Onew stood blankly at the same spot where Taeyeon left her. He couldn't understand how and why everything happened so fast. He didn't have time to say thank you to her yet she already said that she can't marry him.

Onew felt happy yet disappointed after what she had said. In short, he doesn't really know what and how to feel. He admitted to himself that he's starting to like the girl inside his house yet he still loves Joon to death. Taeyeon is a perfect lady to a guy. She has everything that a guy wishes for but he can't seem to understand why there's something inside of him that he can't totally fall in love with her. Maybe because he's gay and still in love with Lee Joon. He doesn't know. He's really confused.

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"Jinki!! Jinki!! Wait for me!" Eight year old Taeyeon was running down the stairs so fast just to fetch the running Jinki who's going out of the house. She didn't notice the step and she fell down. Blood dripped from her head and bruises all over her body. Her mother shouted in tears as she saw her unconscious daughter lying on the floor.

Jinki's mother was surprised to see the bloody girl lying on the floor. She put the baby Taemin on the couch and called for an ambulance.

When they reached the hospital, the doctors had a hard time to treat Taeyeon most especially her head. She needed brain surgery as a big part of her brain has been severly damaged. She's not yet dead though she has the possibility to die if she hasn't undergo operation. The surgery is really critical that only surgeons from the other countries can conduct.

"I know that it was my son's fault." Mrs. Lee told her bestfriend while they were sitting on the waiting room.

"No, he doesn't have any fault. It's an accident." Mrs. Kim told her but Mrs. Lee insisted that it was her son's fault.

"I promised you that whatever happens, my son will pay for everything that he had done to Taeyeon."

"No, jus-"

"Just.. accept it. I don't want to see you suffering because of my son's fault."

"But-"

"Remember that Taeyeon likes Jinki right? What if we set up an arrange marriage?" Mrs. Lee suggested but the other was in hesitation. She looked at her daughter and closed her eyes. It's for Taeyeon's happiness anyways.. She thought.