Officially Yours 2 [COMPLETED]

Death Glares

Jennie

"Jen?! Jen are you okay?? what happened??" pagtawag sakin ni Chaeng matapos niyang makitang humahangos ako palabas ng opisina ni Lisa.

She held me in my arms and she asked me again. "Hey Jennie tell me, anong nangyari? Sinaktan ka ba ni Lisa?"

I looked up and turned my gazed at her at nagtama ang mga mata namin. I saw how shocked she is when she saw me crying. I didn't speak, I just shook my head to answer her question. I know Lisa is mad at me pero hindi niya magagawang saktan ako and Chaeng should know that. She was about to speak another word but I chose to look away at tumakbo papalayo. I just want to disappear, I don't want to be here. Patuloy lang ako sa pagtakbo and I never dared myself to look back para lingunin si Chaeng na patuloy na tinatawag ang pangalan ko.

Tuloy tuloy lang ako sa pagtakbo ng walang pakialam kung sino mang tao ang mababangga ko. All I want now is to go away and leave this place. Unti unting humihina ang boses ni Chaeng hanggang sa tuluyan nang mawala sa pandinig ko ang pagtawag niya sakin. I held my chest when I reached the exit of the hospital. Sobrang sikip ng dibdib ko, hindi ako makahinga, at parang bukal ng tubig na hindi nauubos ang mga luha ko na patuloy na umaagos mula sa mga mata ko.

Agad akong sumakay sa kotse but I can't move my hands to drive away. I stayed inside my car, crying.

Ano ba Jennie Kim tama na! Kanina ka pa iyak ng iyak! Dapat inexpect mo na to, dapat handa ka na para dito! Dapat alam mo nang ganito yung magiging reaksyon niya.

Ang alam ko handa na ko eh. Alam ko sa sarili kong handa na ko para dito pero bakit ang sakit pa rin? Ramdam ko pa rin yung galit niya sa tuwing tinitingnan ko yung mga mata niya, puno ng lungkot puno ng sakit at lahat ng yun ay dahil sakin. Alam ko naman yun at handa akong tanggapin lahat ng galit niya. Pero sana, sana wag si Dad. All I want is for my Dad to get better, all I want is to extend my Dad's life. Why does she needs to be so selfish, why does she needs to be like this? Alam kong may kasalanan ako sa kanya pero hindi niya naman kailangang idamay si Dad dito. I thought she loves him? I thought she treats him as his own father? Bakit hindi niya magawa to para kay Dad? Bakit? Is it okay for her to see my Dad suffer dahil sa galit niya sakin? Is it okay for her to let him die? This is not her, this is no longer the Lisa that I used to love and if she doesn't wanna do this, I'm not gonna force her to. I will just convince my Dad to do it with or without her.

I stayed inside my car hanggang sa kumalma na ko nang biglang tumunog ang phone ko. It was Seungho. I forgot na ngayon ngapala ang dating niya and I agree na makipagkita sa kanya.

"Hello" I said habang pinipilit kong pakalmahin ang boses ko na kagagaling lang sa paghikbi.

"Hey Jen! I just arrived, can we meet?" he said at ramdam ko yung excitement sa boses niya.

"Yeah sure"

"Okay good! I'm here at the Blue Bay Walk. Do you know how to get here?" he asked.

"Yeah I know that place. I'm on my way" I answered then I glance at my wrist watch to look for the time.

4:15. Shit! I've been here sobbing, drowning myself to tears for almost I don't know how long. I looked at the rearview mirror of my car and I saw that I look like a mess. Full of sweat, tears, swollen eyes, and smudged mascara. I took a deep breath bago ako nagdesisyon na ayusin ang sarili ko. Hindi ako pwedeng makipagkita sa Boss ko ng ganito ang itsura ko. He's always meticulous when it comes to appearance. He always wants everybody to look good especially that we are working in the fashion industry where you always need to look fabulous, not absolutely fabulous but atleast presentable.