D&S

Chapter # 28

We were all in the drawing-room. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. I can't face Desmond. I just can't. I bit my lips and held the pen in my hands. Mother put a hand on my shoulder and gave me a reassuring smile.

"It's alright. We are here for you." I nodded and shut my eyes tightly. I love Desmond, he is the only love of my life but I can't live with him. It's unbearable. I am afraid of him. A tear rolled onto my cheek as I signed the divorce papers.

"Send them to Desmond.." I said as I stood up and left.

I closed the door behind me and fell on my knees and began to cry out.

Only if you had shown me affection. Only if you had never induced such fright in my heart, that my petite form won't be able to remove them.

I just can't live with you anymore. My fears overcome my love for you. I am so scared to be with you. I don't want to give in to your fake affection. I don't want to go through that feeling of betrayal again.

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It's been a week since I have sent the divorce papers to Desmond. I was leaning on the wall, hugging my sides. I felt so void. I felt so empty. My heart is shattered. I close my eyes and let the darkness consume me. I was standing in the main hall. My heart is crumbling slowly and painfully. My heart skipped a beat when the Main Door opened and Desmond walked in with an angry look. My body stiff as I felt my energy; which is of very little is left, being drained away. I hugged myself tightly. Desmond stopped in front of me. He gave me a hurt look. He held my arms and pulled me close. I flinched at his touch, he leans in and asked in a croaked voice,

"Are you kidding me?" His voice was so deep. He is hurting too much. It made me sad. I looked away and said,

"Let me go... please.." I close my eyes and let out a single tear.

"Say this to my face." He said. I look at Desmond. My teary eyes met his eyes that are filled with endless suffering.

"Please... Release me..." I said barely in an audible voice. He took a step back and ran his hand through his hairs. He looked at me again, tears pricked in the corner of his eyes.

"No.. no.. No.. Please Ester... Anything but not this... Please don't punish me like this...." he pleads as I look away again. I chewed on my lower lip so as not to cry. He turned for an instant and suddenly he slammed his hands on the wall, trapping me in his arms. I squeak at his actions. I began to tremble in dread. I clutched the hem of my dress tightly. I gave him a terrified look. His eyes showed a mixture of wrath and intense mental pain. His emotions are replaced by an immense look of fondness. His eyes flicker with a look of remorse and love. He put his knuckle over my cheek and began to caress them. My breath hitched at his action. I gasped in dread as he said in a soothing tone,

"Shh... Relax Ester. It's alright. I won't hurt you" Without breaking the stare, he continued to caress my cheeks gently. I shivered by his touch And I am truly scared by his action. My quivering lips, my scared form, didn't relax even a bit in his arm. My petrified sapphire eyes bore into his Caring Silver ones.

"GET AWAY FROM MY DAUGHTER!!" Mother came in yelling.

"DON'T COME MOTHER!" My shivering scared form stopped mother without breaking our stars.

"Why.. ?" Desmond gave a look filled with anguish.

"I am so scared of you," I told him the truth. I closed my eyes and my quivering lips began to say,

" I am so scared of you...Your presence... Your anger... Your love... Your whole Being embeds deep terror within me... " My voice came out like a whisper. I slowly opened my eyes and met his eyes.