Thorny Roses || YeonBin/TaeGyu/YeonGyu/SooKai AU✔

chapter 47

Japan, 2020

"No!", the silver haired male called crazily as he kept swaying his body back and forth while sitting on the bed, his hands clutching both sides of his head very tightly, "No!"

His head was feeling like it was about to explode torturing the boy violently. He had no complete control over himself as he tried to endure a horrible pain, making some items in the room shake since his mind kept spreading its power over them by itself. He was in the hotel room, curtains drawn widely, letting the pillar of the moon break through him. His fingers were gripping his silver locks strongly while his eyes were shut very tightly. He was trying his best to hold himself back from doing something really bad, but his mind seemed to take more and more control over his body and slowly he was starting to feel like he was no longer controlling it.

"You can handle it, I believe in you"

Beomgyu quickly shook his head, feeling how his pain was going into the other male too as he kept refusing leaving him alone, exactly like him, "Go", he growled, gritting his teeth, "Before I completely lose control".

"That's exactly why I am here"

"Shut up!", Beomgyu yelled as he leaped up from the bed, hearing how the vase fell from the window sill and dropped on the floor, smashing into pieces at once, but he didn't care. He just kept walking around crazily, trying to keep sanity but the more he tried, the more he kept failing. He was feeling how he was being absorbed by some unknown force and he was scared to death because he didn't want to lose himself to the raging implant which kept affecting his brain with its incredible power and changing his behaviours in a speed of light. His ears were pierced by different things shaking and tapping against the floor as he bent in his knees and fell on the floor, tears flowing from his eyes like heavy rain, expressing nothing but deadly pain that kept tearing his nerves apart, "Taehyun, help me", he cried out as he landed on the floor with his side, his body curling into a ball as his hands kept gripping his hair, "I can't take it anymore", he sobbed, his hot tears dripping on the floor while he breathed very heavily, as if he was suffocating from lack of air which was definitely being knocked out of his lungs.

"That's what I used to say, do you remember?"

Beomgyu shook his head since he didn't have any strength for remembering anything as he tried to handle the pain and lock it inside his mind at the same time as much as possible, his body shaking from his violent sobs, "It hurts", he called desperately, "M-more than ever"

"I know, hyung", Taehyun said in a wobbling voice, "But I know you are stronger"

"I'm not", Beomgyu replied immediately, "No, I am not"

"Focus on your body, hyung"

Beomgyu felt his body filling up with with a huge warmth as soon as Taehyun's words rang in his mind, love pouring beautifully into his heart, wrapping it up in a pure affection which made anger rise into his body, making him jump up instantly and stare upwards with flaming eyes, his rage burning the other boy from head to toe, "Fuck off!", Beomgyu yelled furiously, "Fucking stop sending fake feeling to me!", he took some shaky breaths before planting his face into his palms and murmuring quietly, "I know you don't love me that way, I know that you don't"

He suddenly heard a knock on the door, making him flinch from the unexpected sound as his bloodshot eyes landed on it, "Sir!", someone called from the other side, "Please, open the door"

Beomgyu sniffled as he wiped his tears off his face aggressively and darted his eyes towards the floor, right where the pieces of the vase were scattered around.

"Don't"

But Beomgyu just ignored him as he walked to them and kneeled down, hesitantly placing a big piece with a sharp point in his hand, his eyes observing it carefully as Taehyun kept trying to stop him, but Beomgyu had lost control enough to not even listen to him.

The silver haired male got on his feet as he marched towards the door with slow paces, his every step feeling much heavier that they were indeed.

"Beomgyu, don't become like me, please. Believe me and don't force me to take possession of your mind"

"You can't do it without my permission", Beomgyu said in his mind as he slowly got closer to the door, his eyes completely cold and indifferent as if his soul had left his body.

"Sir!", the man kept calling from the outside, "I know you are in"

Beomgyu stood at the door, his hand moving slowly towards the handle and touching it's cold surface. He was about to pull it down when Taehyun's words froze him in his place-

"I love you"

Beomgyu suddenly became paralyzed as the same feelings filled his body again, tingling sensations running through his stomach as his rage slowly started to fade, "Are you saying this to stop me?", he asked in his mind in the upset tone, sanity slowly returning to his mind as tears welled up in his hazel orbs.

"Observe my feelings and you will know the answer to that"

Beomgyu's hand on the handle tightened as he shut his eyes tightly and looked inside younger's mind which was like an open book to him now, making more tears run down his flushed face. His hand slowly loosened and the piece of the vase dropped on the floor, while millions of different emotions kept crossing his body, bringing sanity back to him as he panted heavily. He was feeling more happy than ever in his life but he still couldn't stop his tears flowing over his face and his heart aching terribly, making him cry but his sobs got muffled as he placed his palm over his lips, so the hotel employee standing on the other side wouldn't hear him, but fortunately he had already gone since noises had already stopped coming from Beomgyu's hotel room. So the silver haired male leaned against the door with his back and slowly slid down, slumping against the floor as he planted his face into his palms and brought his knees to his chest, sobbing wholeheartedly.

"I didn't say it to make you cry"

"Why didn't you tell me?", Beomgyu cried out, "Why did you keep suffering me if you loved me?"

"Because I loved you. That's why. I didn't want you to start looking for me but i still couldn't stop it"

Beomgyu shook his head immediately, wiping his tears off with his knuckles as he kept sniffling softly, "No", he murmured quietly, "I will find you. Everything will be fine, I promise. I just need some time to learn controlling myself and then I'll come straight to you"

"What if they harm you too, gyu?", Taehyun asked in a pained voice, "What if something goes wrong and your plan doesn't work?"

Beomgyu took some shaky breaths, trying to calm himself down as he propped his arms on his knees and sniffled while looking forward in the space stubbornly, "Nothing matters as long as I will see you even for once", he said in a hoarse voice, "I'll give up everything for this. I just want to see your face and touch you", he uttered as he gripped his knees from pain which stabbed his heart. He had been feeling the younger boy during his whole life which started for him exactly when he woke up after his operation, yet he had no idea how it would feel to touch him, to be physically close to him. He wanted to do it so bad that it hurt him like hell and that pain was very hard to endure, it was more terrible than any physical pain since it used to attack his heart which was very difficult to heal.

He heard the younger male chuckling bitterly at his words, "It's very ironical when even I have never seen my face since my childhood"

Beomgyu felt very sad at his words, knowing how terrible it was for Taehyun to live without being able to see his own self even for a second. Beomgyu would say that he couldn't even imagine living a life like that, but he knew very well how it felt like since Taehyun and him were like one soul in two bodies and their connection was even stronger now when none of them was no longer kicking the other out of their minds.

They knew very well that it was crucial to keep their connection with each other all the time as they were closer to their first meeting than ever in their entire lives.