Thorny Roses || YeonBin/TaeGyu/YeonGyu/SooKai AU✔

chapter 15

"I miss your voice, please, say something."

Beomgyu was sitting on the chair at the opened window and even though he was cold he still kept looking at the dark sky, not even a single star lighting it up. His head was rested on his arm placed on the window sill as he drew little circles in boredom on the surface. His mind was buried in deep sadness as dark emotions kept filling it up, his heart getting heavier and heavier in his chest and his lungs felt like they were crammed with heavy metals, making it hard for the boy to breath fluently. He was feeling his friend's presence in his mind again and despite the fact that he had been begging him to talk to him for already an hour, the boy still kept being quiet which was driving Beomgyu insane.

"You're cold and you make me cold too."

Beomgyu's eyes widened at unexpected voice in his mind and his heart started pounding loudly in his chest as usual, feeling waves of excitement rushing into his body. He lifted his head up as little sparkles appeared in his hazel eyes, "How are you? Are you feeling alright?" He asked in an enthusiastic voice as his lips curled upwards into a quick happy smile.

"Yes, I'm fine."

Beomgyu nodded even though he knew the other male was never fine, but he didn't argue since he wanted to have a conversation with him. "I would think I'm crazy and you are my imaginary friend if sometimes I couldn't see through your eyes," he muttered thoughtfully as he touched the surface of the window sill with his fingertips again and went back to moving them in small circles, "Or maybe this is my imagination too, because I always see the darkness. I wish I knew how you look," he said the last part in a regretful voice, his eyes filling with sadness.

"I know, but we can't do anything about it. At least I see your appearance sometimes when you look in the mirror."

"I am ugly right?"

"I wish I could hit you right now."

A few seconds of silence infused the atmosphere but it was a comfortable one. Beomgyu noticed that his breathing had become calm and he was no longer feeling heaviness in his body. He just savored the other's presence in his mind and huge warmth occupied his body even though the cold air was hitting his skin.

"Let your feelings out."

He suddenly heard and furrowed his eyebrows in confusion since he didn't know what his friend was talking about. Seemed like the other male in his mind felt his confusion since he answered him before the silver haired boy asked anything-

"You are sad and I know it's about Yeonjun. Maybe I know everything you're thinking but you need to speak your sadness aloud if you want to get rid of it."

Beomgyu sighed heavily when he acknowledged what the other was talking about. He hadn't even noticed he was thinking about the pink haired male. "I'm very confused and I don't know what to do. I want to start a relationship with him but at the same time I don't, because I'm afraid that I won't be able to fall in love with him. I don't want to hurt him more than I already have, but I also don't want to hurt him by staying only friends with him after i kissed him."

"He has such a huge affection in his stare when he looks at you, in your place I would be head over heels in love with him."

"I would be too if there was no someone else," Beomgyu uttered sadly, feeling a fake confusion from the other male uprising in his mind.

"Someone else?"

"Stop pretending like you don't know who I am talking about," he huffed as he rolled his eyes, feeling a little anger because of the other boy's ignorant actions. He quickly shook his head before standing up from the chair and walking up to his nightstand only to roll its drawer out and grab a pack of cigarettes along with a little lighter.