"T-time?" I asked. I didn't know why I bothered at this point.
"Are you sure you want to know?" Papyrus questioned, recieving a rather shaky nod. In fact, my whole body was shaking. "Very well. One decade, one year, eight months, two weeks, five days, ten hours, thirty-seven minutes, and twenty-one seconds."
I was lying on my bedroom floor in silence, trying not to shiver as badly as I had been recently. A bad side effect of losing magic, I guess. We ran out of food a while ago, and the magic I had was the rest of it; There was no more. The condition also came with stuttering, which made me in turn try to speak less. Papyrus worried about me; I didn't know why: I mean, I killed him, didn't I? Did I care that he may have been suffering just as much if not more than I was now?
"Brother, how do you feel?" Papyrus doted.
"N-not g-g-good." I slowly replied.
"Does it hurt?"
I nodded. It hurt worse than every time I'd dusted, every ounce of pain I've ever felt, and so much more wrapped into one package. The worst part is, it wasn't even centralized; it coursed through my body, and it got worse every tormented second. I might have been whimpering, but my thoughts covered any sounds from outside; I tried my best to listen to what Papyrus said, but I wasn't doing a very good job. People said loud sounds make it hard to think; if that's true, loud thoughts make it hard to do anything. I wasn't scared, no matter what I must have looked like. I deserved everything that happened to me; I must have done worse to others. I wasn't complaining about anything, and no matter how bad it got, I never would.
"Brother! Snap out of it!" Papyrus ordered.
I coughed and looked at him.
"Brother, we will get through this together, but I need you to stay with me!" Papyrus pleaded.
"I'm-m t-tryi-ing.." I managed to say.
"Try to focus on something, anything!"
"Y-you're th-the b-best, P-Paps."
"Brother, perhaps you should sleep. You can save more energy and magic that way!"
"Ok-kay....P-Papyr-rus.."
I shut my eyesockets and descended into another nightmare. If I had to use magic to get dreams at night, I would have stopped a long time ago. I was feeling the pain even in the dream, and it wasn't the best feeling; in fact, it might have made it hurt worse. I dreamed about dust, just like every other time I slept. Dust that just floated around, doing nothing but torturing me with its existence; I couldn't complain, though. In the past decade, I had learned a lot about dust; I guess that wasn't going to get me very far, was it? I could access the lives of people through their dust, recognize anybody instantly, and even manipulate it somewhat; that is, without magic, of course. I took to writing down what I learned about it, in case anybody else ever fell down; I doubted they would, though.
I woke up to all too familiar surges of pain, and the face of my brother, worrying about me. I never wanted him to have to worry about me, but I guess I couldn't really help that now, could I? I couldn't cover this up like I could with everything else. I was a terrible brother, friend, and all around person; I pitied anybody who had to be in the same universe as me. I wasn't going to let the kid win, though. I was not going to give up; I was determined to live until I couldn't any longer. If I had to go through years more of this torment, so be it, but I was not going to give in to temptation just because I'd been stranded in a universe with only my brother as a ghost for company.
"Murder, are you awake?" Papyrus wondered.
I nodded. I was indeed awake.
"Do you feel any better?"
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From Murder to Dust
FanfictionIt wasn't as if he didn't care for them. He did. That's why he did it, after all. He couldn't watch them suffer, so he did something about it. Dust Sans story with Nightmare's gang.