my diary

Saturday, may 22nd

Another boring Saturday. I miss when I had fun. Now it feels like my whole life is boring. I have to clean my room this weekend so Samantha can spend the night on Wednesday. It's the last day of school, so it's not a school night. Except I didn't do anything today so I have to do it all tomorrow. I woke up and went and got donuts like I do every Saturday morning. I got two donuts today because I wanted to try this new one but I wanted a safety net. Ugh I sound so fat. Anyway, other than that, I've been eating all day. And watching TV. I finished modern family, which was eventful. My mom went to hobby lobby so I decided to learn a tiktok dance in the living room. My brother walked in, and it was the most embarrassing thing ever. Soo news on Ben. I showed my friend his picture and said "that's my bestie" I know that sounds annoying, but not really when I say it... Hopefully. And she said "oh that's Ally's boyfriend." (Fake name) I said "oh what's her last name?" She said "I don't know" he must be bi or pan because he had a boyfriend before. Anyway, the day after I talked to him for the first time, I talked to him again. He was with his friends. His friends are cool, but their so cool it's scary. So I went up to him and said "Ben! Sign my yearbook!" One of his friends said "yeah Ben, sign her yearbook." I know it seems weird but they were actually funny. I know they were making fun of me, but I don't care. I said "oh I stalked you in there, I've seen your picture." I didn't know what else to say. I was surround by a bunch of cool 9th graders. I'm so stupid. Then he said "what do you want me to write?" I just shrugged. Then his friend said "write your phone number" I said "actually yeah I want your phone number." I wanted to say that from the start. He said "ok." This girl said "can u sign it too?" I said "yeah!" She said "ok I'll put his phone number" him and me said "ok" once he was done signing, he handed the book to the girl. She wrote "meow" and "5830000000" (fake area code) he said "that's not my phone number." And went to grab the pencil and book, but she shut it and gave it back to me. I just said "ok thanks!" And walked off. That must have been ally... His girlfriend. I wasn't trying to flirt with him. I hope she knows that. She's not worried about me anyway. I'm just sad I didn't get his number. We have 3 more days of school and I just got the courage to talk to him and now he's going to high school. We are having a yearbook signing thing on Wednesday. If he's there, maybe I'll give it another try. Only if his girlfriend isn't there. I just wanna be his friend :/ well I'm gonna go now byeee