Sidnaaz- Tales of Love✨❤️

LAST

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LAST CHAPTERRRRR
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Sidharth banged the door loudly and said SHEHNAZ OPEN THE DOOOR.
Shehnaz curled into the blanket even more and said GO AWAY!!!!
Sidharth- Shehnaz If you don't open the door then you see.
Shehnaz ignored and cringed at herself because of the incident happened 20 minutes ago. She literally pushed everyone out.

Shehnaz was inside the blanket just when she felt the blanket ripped away from her.
She snapped her head and saw Sidharth glaring at her.
Shehnaz gasped and shouted HOW DID YOU ENTER?
Sidharth - Window?
Shehnaz got up and quickly tried to run away when Sidharth rolled his eyes and pulled her wrist and held her by the waist and pinned her down to the bed.

He got on her with a stern expression and said I won't let you go until you drop this thing.
Shehnaz groaned knowing he won't as this was his trick whenever they fought.
Sidharth saw her red face and said Why are you so embarrassed? As if you never had acidity infront of me? Or anything? Should I tell you once you-
Shehnaz - STOP! ITS THAT YOU WOULD BE DISAPPOINTED THAT I WASNT PREGNANT BECAUSE I KNEW HOW MUCH YOU WANTED TO HAVE A KID IN FUTURE.

Sidharth stopped and stared at her flushed face.
He slowly raised his hands and tucked her hair and said, I was a little disappointed. But I was really happy that it didn't happen when we are in our worst condition. The baby would need love not the misunderstandings we have between us.
Shehnaz sighed with her eyes moist and nodded.
Sidharth- So you still won't talk?
Shehnaz- What?

Sidharth- THIS. THIS HABBIT OF YOURS IS THE ONLY THING I HATE. Whatever you feel you keep in your heart. Whenever I unintentionally would ditch you out you would still smile as nothing happened. Whenever your mother would scream and hit you, you would still hug her and cry alone. Whenever your sister stepped on you; you would still care for her. When you would be having a mental trauma inside your head you WOULD KEEP IT IN EVEN IF IT DESTROYS YOUR WHOLE LIFE.
WHY? WHY ARE YOU SO SELFISH!?????

Shehnaz angrily looks at sidharth with tears leaking through her eyes and said YES I AM SELFISH. YES YOU ARE THE PERFECT CHARACTER IN THIS STORY. I am the stupid girl who believed in the misunderstanding and didn't trust you. What do you call someone who had no family to talk to? The mother who was mentally unstable and I was her daughter and sometimes human punching bag. When the sister hates your guts? And you have no one to talk to because of the crazy mother? THEN WHOM WOULD I CONFIDE INTO? This is what I have learnt; to keep it to myself.

I told you I am not easy. Do you know why I believed and didn't believe in it? Because I was so insecure about myself. Now how can I a girl be so insecure? Insecurity can't be easily gone; like even if I have a boyfriend who showers all the love to me. It makes me more insecure that do I even deserve his love? Maybe he could be with someone who has a less twisted family and a better personality. I was insecure that a person like you would get a person like my sister or someone even greater. It's so funny how people question your insecurities. Like it's so mentally damaging to even explain how the other person might feel?

Like, I might not like my body and I share it with someone; they would be like OH WHY ARE YOU INSECURE? It's pretty!
Oh Thankyou I don't have my insecurity anymore. Do people realise how deep insecurities are? How hard self hate is? How hard is to love yourself? No human is perfect, not that idol or actress you like nor girls like me.  I was scared to marry you, I was scared that I don't turn like my mother even though I knew you weren't like my father. When I saw you and my sister even though I knew it can be false but my biggest fear was in front of my eyes. And it's okay if I am selfish to drown myself into insecurities, and I am okay with it.