marvel one-shots

If I knew then...

Hey lovelies, sorry it's short. This was just something that popped into my head :)

'If I knew then what I know now, maybe I would have done everything different. Maybe I could have done it right.'

Peter sat on a roof somewhere in the city, countless paintings of Ironman- The worlds hero, but Peter saw Tony- His own hero, father figure, idol. He sat looking at them, remembering everything that had happened and how he could have done better, saved more people. Saved Tony. Maybe he could have done it all different if he knew what he knew now.

If he just fought harder, or smarter, just better in every way, maybe then he wouldn't have lost. Maybe then he wouldn't hurt when he saw that face, or that mask, or a kid in a costume, or that man's tattoo. Maybe then he wouldn't feel so alone. He could swing freely around the city, go on cute dates with MJ, he could sit on a rooftop without the crippling weight of grief he constantly carried with him now. If he had just done it differently.

His mind slipped back to what Dr. Strange had said, that this was the one timeline where the world was saved, and people came back after the blip. Tony had to die. Natasha had to die. Nothing felt fair. It still felt like he did everything wrong. Maybe Strange was lying and this was just one timeline of a few where they won, but this one was just easier. But why would he lie about that? Why would he say Tony had to go when he didn't? That didn't seem right. But he still thought he could do better. Should have done better.

If only he knew then, what he knew now.