I only remember nights that was post-traumatic
So I'm never actin' bougie like I was supposed to have it
Serving addicts, toting ladders, it was so dramatic
Putting friends before my family my worsest habit
'Cause in my hood, it ain't no friends when you get the Benz
'Cause homie in the backseat wanna split your wig
Just to play the driver seat and say he hit the lid
And he gon' post it on the 'Gram like, "Don't forget the vid'"
Seen niggas tell on their own homies just to get to LIV
Miami on a Sunday just to commit them sins
And these the ones we supposed to ride for, forget the kids
Throw your life away for a nigga that wouldn't send your kids
Twenty dollars when you in your bid, this the way we live, the way we did
'Cause I'm in the chains, fuck the way it is
The way it was, now the only way is up
I'm never into faking love, I'm only here to wake you up
Young nigga
Lennox
The smell of blood filled my nostrils and it made me sick to my stomach.
I opened my eyes and the the light that shined above me damn near blinded me.
I looked around and all I saw was plastic shit, this definitely wasn't no damn hospital.
Yooo where the fuck am I, the straining from yelling caused pain to rip through my body and that's when I touched my neck. I could feel that it was a bloody bandage on my neck and my shit was hurting like a mf. That's when I remembered I was in the car about to get head from that bitch meme when she upped her gun and said some shit about her daddy before she fucking shot me.
Try not to move so much.
I looked in the direction where I heard the voice come from and I saw a bitch in scrubs.
Yo where the fuck am I at?
Your in what I like to call hell. Another lady said walking over towards me wearing all black.
Who the fuck are you?
You can call me T.
Where the fuck that bitch meme at she shot me.
Don't call my daughter a bitch that's rude. And missed your main artery by an inch, I told her ass not to kill, but she hard headed just like her daddy. Luckily for you I have a few nurse friends who were able to save you.
Lady what the fuck you want from me? I don't know you from the next jawn on the corner.
Oh I know who you are Lennox, your Lettys son.
Ok what the fuck that gotta do with anything?
Let me reintroduce you into someone.
This is my baby girl meme.
How the fuck you go from sucking dick to upping strap?
Nigga I was never going to suck your dick, I would've blew that mf clean off before I put it in my mouth.
Man what's y'all beef with me? I don't know neither one of y'all.
See our beef ain't really with you, it was with Letty, but since she decided to die of cancer the issue falls to you, sorry but it is what it is.
What was yo beef with my OG?
Do you know yo history of North Philly?
Listen lady, I'm sitting here with a neck wound and you wanna have history class. I need a fucking doctor not no nurse. And I been graduated high school so spare me the fucking history lesson please.
Back then my baby daddy and his crew ran north Philly. These were there streets. He was on top and made sure me and my daughter lived a lash life. We were well taken care of. But all that changed when he was found shot and and his body was burned to a crisp. We couldn't even have a proper burial because of it. All my daughter has left of her father is memories from
When she was 4 and under.
