BTS one-Shots

55. Now You Know- KNJ Pt-6

It was nothing but a paper of our divorce............

People's life is full of stories and experience. Mine was maybe a bit hard but my story was indifferent too. I don't let fate take me away but let myself take away the fate. We all lose hopes of living at a point of our life, giving up the couragement saying, "there's no way it's gonna be fine" when actually there's more open way right Infront of us, as we let it go without opening the mask that blinded us which is the lose of hope.

I was also predicted to lose in my life, having nothing left over that night. Life turned into a hopeless book of advice. I didn't had any courage to question myself for it. Was I even worth of questioning myself? Indeed I was greedy for trust, hope and love.

Fate was jealous of me that it replaced the figure. I pity myself for bothering the shelf of life thinking it doesn't contain any jar of hope while there was a enlightened boxes of them. 

Helpless was the only tension surrounded me. I felt helpless toward myself. He saw me watching him with the girl and didn't insist a bit but gone farther. Maybe there was no more parts to be torn. The were no pieces left to break in my heart.

I had taken the peace of paper which was assigned as our divorce paper, already signed by him. Life is full of wonder and surprises. He was one of them. A surprise of my life.

Bothering Namjoon at that moment felt useless for me. How much will he do for me? Fighting a case for me against a dirty man, taking me to the therapist, giving me time even when he isn't free from his own life. Should I bother him more now? I thought and run my hand against my will in the paper, signing off, I get ahead of my life.

I had no intension to live anymore. Neither wanted to breath on the air. Last word I said to myself while leaving that house was, " see you in the court Jeon. "

I didn't even bother to take my bag with me. The only thing in my hand was my phone. I walked out of the house carry the soulless body of mine. How can my soul be faithful again when I already had given my soul to him. Wish he could know someday about the boundless love I had for him, being selfless for myself.

My appearance without any appointments and before time, startled my therapist Mr. Jung.
"Mrs. Jeon? Are you okay?" He stood up from the seat at my presence. Maybe he guessed something facing my trembling figure. Also the name he called tore my heart more.

"Not Mrs. Jeon anymore Mr. Jung." My trembling lips managed speak as I couldn't help but broke down Infront of him. Only one thing was going around my head. What's gonna happen then?

He run towards me to keep me in pace. "I signed the d- divorce paper because I, I saw him with another girl." I whispered while he helped me seat in.

His pitiful face shows concerns like he is the one troubling here.
" Please take deep breaths miss Y/n. It's never a good part of life but definitely it's gonna fade away. Nothing last longer you know. People love losing gems when they have them. Do you know why? Because they Have that. They forget the value. But when they actually lost it and saw other cherish the gems, they regret their actions. I believe the gem can shine brighter than ever now."

Walking for hours maybe, my feet almost give up and I had to stop somewhere. I found no place to go. No where to be sheltered. A park nearby was clear in my vision, where many peoples were having their own time. Couples and childs. How funny life has turned out of the way to the journey of love.

What's the actual definition of love? Is it you'll think I'm cheating and you'll cheating back at me? Is it what we call love. The so called love has shown the actual face of love.

Thought were roaming over Y/n's head as she take a seat at a nearby bench. He face was Like those dead leaf playing on the ground. Her motives couldn't help but break down into tears uncared by the surrounding might notice her. It was far from the bother.