One last try / Jenna Ortega

Chapter 36

Jenna's Pov:
(8:20 am)
i arrived in class, and even though i tried to brush off all of these thoughts, of Claire and Leo being in an imaginary relationship, i couldn't.. I was so furious about something that wasn't even happening, and then i wanna act like i don't care? When i clearly do.. I don't want to, but i do.. And i think it's time i admit it to myself and just let things flow how they're supposed to,

i rushed in and made my way towards my desk, stomping on the floor, and almost sweating from the heat that had been circulating in my head, i was bloated with anger, i was so blinded by my frustration that when i finally stopped i'm front of my desk, i noticed Leo wasn't here, he's always here before me, where is he? My first instinct was to turn around and look at Claire's desk.. I did so taking a rough turn and shooting a deadly look towards her, Leo wasn't there..

I have no idea why i thought they would be sitting with this bitch, i let my thoughts get the best of me, i scoffed and took a seat, i started to feel sad, did i upset them earlier? Why did i storm off? Maybe i overreacted.. What if they never wanna see me again,

i'm never gonna feel this comfortable with anyone, i haven't even felt like that with my friends, i'm never gonna feel this attraction again, i fucked it up i should have gone with it this whole damn time, felt my eyes start to itch as they swam in tears, i fought them back, i didn't wanna cry in class.. What am i feeling.. Am i missing him?

i felt so many emotions, but mainly anxiety from sadness, i started to sweat, as my body itched as well, i grabbed the sides of Leo's sweater and pulled it off, i then dipped my face in my palms, trying my best not to cry, it's the fact that they might just be late, but they never are, i'm so scared that he won't show up,

i've never acted like this before, i never gave a fuck who stays and who leaves in my life, but for some reason i don't want Leo to ever leave.. Ever, my throat was getting sore from the pressure i was applying on myself to not sob, my eyes flooded more and more, i started sniffling, and shaking my head,

"Jenna" i heard from the other side of the class someone call out me, i recognized it was Alana's voice, but i knew that if i picked my head up, the second that the light would hit my eyes, i would start crying. And i am not about to start crying, especially for the reason that i want to, "hey look at me" Alana rushed over with anger in her voice, she was ready to beat up anyone that hurt me, "i said look at me" she demanded once again, i gathered myself as much as i could and lifted my head to look at her,

my eyes were red, and my face had dropped, i was still fighting back tears, causing my expression to show that i'm ready to burst out crying, her eyes widened and she snatched me, tugging my face in her chest so no one can see it, cause she knows i hate crying in public, in general if you may, "hey get over here, comfort her and don't let her cry got it?" Alana ordered someone next to her that had just approached us to do so, while slightly shouting, who was she asking this from?

i sniffed and pulled my head out of her chest, to see Alana staring this person down, "of course" they obeyed her, i moved Alana to the side to see who she was taking to, who she was demanding to take care of me, and behind her stood Leo, with a slightly worried expression, "good.. You and i will discuss this later" she furiously got out, pointing at me with her long nails, you could tell she was pissed, while my eyes were still blood shot and my cheeks puffy, i nodded, in response, already feeling better since i saw him,

i waited a bit for Alana to walk off, then i grabbed Leo and roughly pulled him towards me, he leaped over almost falling, then i caught him hugging them tightly, really tight, i felt his breath get cut off, "Jen your gonna kill me" he hardly got out,  i giggled and let go of him, unwrapping my arms from around their stomach, he grabbed the sides of my shoulders and crouched, we were now face to face, and my expression still held that crying look, "what happened" he worried, it's the first time i've seen them this stressed, i smiled at that,