I have a lot to write about these last few days and I will write about them, I've been doing a lot, and not just work related or uni related. Alhamdulilah I think I got another job within my job but have to apply. It'll be perfect if I get it inshAllah. There's a lot to say, and been going out after work . But I'm feeling so burnt out lately. I'm so mentally drained in all aspects. Spending time with my baby cousin tonight was just what I needed. It was my first time seeing her in months.
You don't understand how burnt out I am No one willl ever understand how hard it is being a student and working and doing placement and juggling assignments and exams and stress and pressure and results day and feedback and being a good friend and being a good sister and daughter and trying to maintain a social life and prioritising and omg
It's actually a lot My twenties is meant to be fun but I'm also building my life
I cried today
And work was hectic but good and I was appreciated and acknowledged a few times and a nurse commented that I'm organised cos I was staying on top of things Honestly I do work hard but I give the impression I don't lol
It's nice to be appreciated
I also found out someone died and I am invited to their funeral tomorrow I loved her I cried over that too
Her funeral is tomorrow in cphilly If I didn't have uni I'd have gone It hit me like a brick
The colour purple. I associated it with only one person. But now I associate it with two people 💜 rest in heaven jo
I also had a dream of my grandad the other night and he told me was going to heaven. I'll never forget the last time I saw him.
Two patients asked for my name today to tell the head nurse I was friendly
It's been a whirlwind today And yesterday I'm so clumsy in work I almost broke the flatscreen tv and a patient had to save me 😭😂 literally grabbed my arm to stop me from falling 😭 I also walked into something so hard that the kitchen staff had to stop what she was doing and hug me 😂 I am so friendly with all the staff. I love the kitchen and housekeeping staff. One of the housekeeping staff told me when she's going on lunch so I can have a chat with her lol, she's like 50. The porters are so friendly too
But I'm so tired I'm constantly tired I'm mentally and emotionally tired This time three years ago I was in Milan and lake como so Italy
I need a genuine break from life This year, I met the most broken version of myself I think
I'm me. I like who I am. I'm not gonna worry what other people think of me. Someone said to me today, you walk in a room and a whole conversation starts with every single person in that room. You engage everyone and don't leave anyone outs One of the nurses. It's true, they often do a drinks round and ask all the staff what drinks they want, I'm always hot chocolate. So the nurse made it. They missed out the student on placement. So I went to the room she's in and asked what she wanted, she wanted a hot chocolate so I made it and brought it for her. I mean I didn't make it all I had to do was press a button on the machine. I like people. People are interesting and fascinating . I'm in awe of humans. Patients are intriguing. Different characters different personalities and different life stories. It's aspiring. I focus on what makes me happy What makes my soul feel at peace I did something with iehab yesterday and it made her laugh so much cos I'm just me I am weird And I don't care bro 😂 I didn't even think of it when I did it I told you, when I'm around the right people I blurt out random things and have no social awareness We were at the McDonald's drive thru and I got a McDonald's and I went IMMMMM LOVIIINGGGG ITTTTT and the girl serving us just looked at me and laughed and iehab laughed I did it in a weird voice lol but I was so excited to get my food that when I got it in my hands, that's the first thing that came into my head to say lol
I will write in more detail Patients blood went all over me today never seen blood squirt out like that Met up with H after work
Tash has asked me to pick her and her bf up this Saturday from the airport I think. This is what I mean when I wanna be a good friend I don't wanna let them down inshAllah I should be free She sent me pics of her in Italy and she looks beautiful my friends are gorgeous mashAllah Having a beautiful personality instantly makes you beautiful in my opinion I'm attracted to personality Personality shines through
I'm shattered but I wanna write about everything in more detail later on
Anyways to say I'm tired is an understatement I have my AirPods in cos my baby cousin is crying a little I don't mind tho
Also each day I'm contemplating applying to medicine again
Had a shower right after work and used the soap and glory body set I love it smells incred
Good night diary 23:08
Why do babies cry when they wanna sleep Sleep is literally my fave time of the day😂
Also Eid mobarak to any Muslims (& non Muslims) reading
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Also I am deeping it and I absolutely LOVE talking to patients Or Anyone really
I know I said it earlier but I really do Actually, talking to random people landed me that job opportunity today. Funny how fate works I met that woman ages ago because I saw her in the changing rooms and started speaking to her cos I liked her perfume Introduced me to the head of the department today cos I bumped into her downstairs Got the contact details And a job opportunity alhamdulilah
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When it's been a long day. Get someone to lie on the floor with you. (We were trying to get the baby to fall asleep, by acting like we were asleep lol but I genuinely almost fell asleep) The difference in skin colour between me and my sister lol. I've got a lot more pics of the past couple of days
I'm still awake 😭😭
—— Why am I awake so early Gonna go gym now 6:58am
