I'm up at 4:40am cos I really don't feel well. I mean realllyyyy don't feel well.
I've woke up with a dried bloody nose and I'm sat on the kitchen floor. I've taken paracetamol, if that's gonna do anything. I'm sharing my room with my sister tonight.
My one cousin is in the guest bedroom, my other cousin and his wife and baby are in my sisters old room, parents are in their room, so my sisters sleeping on my floor. I initially went to sleep on the floor, I don't mind sleeping on the floor I actually like it lol, I always used to sleep on the floor in Iran it's an Asian thing, but then my sister was insisting she sleeps on the floor cos she knows I don't feel well and would be more comfy on my bed bless her.
I don't see myself going placement next week if I'm feeling this ill. My eyes keep watering too. It looks like I'm crying.
I think I've caught a cold with the combination of how I already feel as well, I feel really ill. So I'm like 10x worse.
But I need to hide it and act okay. But I'm in pain , my eyes hurt. My nose is still bleeding.
Gonna see if I can try get myself off to bed
I also took many Polaroid pics last night :D
My dad just came downstairs and he's like why are you in the dark awake at this hour? (He's work up to pray)
He's giving me medication and lemsip I think bless him he's concerned
My mum just came downstairs too , think I woke up the whole house 😂😂 nah I'm kidding I was quiet. I told my dad my nose is still bleeding and I've woke up with a bloody nose all crusted over, shit I didn't check if it was on my pillow I just rolled out of bed to come downstairs.
He says to just keep my head tilted high but how do I do that in my sleep.
My head is starting to hurt now.
He's just given me a cough/throat sweet and I hate them cos they're so bitter but I feel better a bit can't lie.
I'm starting to feel tired enough to sleep again, also noora hasn't cried all night fair play, apparently she wakes up around 5/6am to drink some milk so she'll probably cry then but she falls back asleep
Good night diary
4:59am
My nose keeps bleeding. Even now. I've taken video evidence for 4am. My head is killing me 😭
My mum came back down again and bless her she's concerned and rubbing my leg like soothing me, she saw the blood, cos my nose is bleeding now. She's making me medication bless her, she should be sleeping she had a long day, I feel bad. She's told me to sleep downstairs and raise my head like a few pillows. Shes told me to hold ice to my head to stop bleeding
She's in the kitchen right now making me something. I told her I'm not gonna go placement on Monday and I might go to the doctors.
Ays briefly came down to see what was up and texted me in bed. She also said I've lost a lot of weight.
I'll drink what she's making and then sleep
I'm holding a tissue to my nose
I also feel sick / nauseous
But this is why I don't wanna tell people cos they get so worried because they care bless them.
My mum just said she's gonna go to sleep but she's not that tired, she said if I need anything I should wake her up, she put her hand against my forehead to check if I have a temp and I could tell she's worried. I said I'm fine, and told her I love her.
5:23am
(Nose is still bleeding)
Also I can't believe how fast babies grow mashAllah. She learns so fast, and she's making a lot of cute baby sounds which I love. She's started saying dada but obviously can't speak at all yet, but it's the cutest thing ever, like you can tell she's trying to communicate with us in baby language. She also stuck her hand in the cake when taking pics and ate a bit of the cake before we did, she's at that stage where she'll put anything in front of her in her mouth 😂
My nose has stopped bleeding. Head still hurts. But getting tired so I'll drink the thing my mum made then head to bed
I just came up to my room and my sister was like are you okay? She goes
You're doing so well I know it's hard with a nose bleed and not feeling well and having guess over, she said sleep as much as your heart desires the next day
Bless her
I actually really appropriated her saying that "you're doing so well"
That was really kind of her cos I try so hard to water it down and play it off. My mum then walked in to see if I was okay. I think they're quite worried which is why I try and hide my
Pain and nose bleeds when they happen
My immune system is a little weak so it makes sense why I've caught a cold too.
Will try an sleep now
