inadequate ☠ afi + lrh • mgc/cth (boyxboy)

c.t.h

June 14, 2014, 11:34 a.m

"rise and shine, clifford," I smiled at Michael and he grumbled and rolled over on his side.

he wasn't a morning person, clearly. but I woke up early, to go exercise and been back for an hour and sat bored.

so it was obviously time for me to wake Michael up, so I wouldn't just be sitting in his room, on my phone. also I was starting to feel hungry and I didn't want to feel that.

"cmon Michael. it's four In the afternoon," I lied trying to get him up, and it did exactly that.

"what? four already? why'd you let me sleep that long, I missed out on breakfast and lunch," he whined making me smile. that's the Michael I know.

"not really, but it got you up now didn't it?" I smiled as he huffed and stood up, ruffling out his hair.

"you smell terrible," he said making me laugh and nod.

"I went on a run this morning," I sai and he nodded in disgust.

"so I can smell," he joked making me playfully punch him in the arms, and walk into the kitchen, where surprisingly his mom sat, drinking coffee.

"hi mom," he said as she nodded sipping her drink.

"hey honey, what are you guys doing," she said not taking her eyes off of the newspaper in front of her.

"nothing," he said and she said nothing further before standing up, and grabbing the car keys.

"i'm going to go upstairs and take a nap before work," she said before exiting the room, and going upstairs to her room.

"well first time I seen her in like a week," I smiled and he nodded keeping a straight face.

"me too,"

"okay, so what's the plan for today. do you want to do something? maybe we could go to Luke's house, and swim," I suggested and he shrugged.

"yeah, I guess. you can text him and ask if you want," he said and I awkwardly nodded my head as I began pulling my phone out and sending luke a text.

via: luke
"yeah"

I laughed at his short reply and shrugged it off before telling Mikey to get dressed so we could hurry up and head over to Luke's house.

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"yeah, i'm just gonna head home, i'm tired," I said as the boys nodded.

"here, take your food from taco bell, at least. you haven't eaten since you've been here. you'll be starving shortly.

I just awkwardly nodded, taking the bag and waving off at the boys before getting in my car and driving back to my house.

I sat in my car for awhile, just holding the food. I so badly just wanted to eat it, but didn't want to gain the weight from it.

maybe just a couple bites, and i'll take care of it. then i'll at least be able to taste it. I sighed as i was already unwrapping the food and had it gone within a minute.

I groaned, regretting that I just ate of that and started feeling guilty. I opened car door, and leaned over squeezing my eyes shut.

do it, calum.

I then proceeded shoving a finger slowly into my mouth, holding it in my throat, until it started coming up. I repeated it multiple times till I was only gagging up air.

I just want to be skinny enough