inadequate ☠ afi + lrh • mgc/cth (boyxboy)

a.f.i

july 10, 2014, 11:00 p.m

I sat up, glancing around my bed in search of my phone, which was ringing. once I saw the light I grabbed it, seeing it was judy, my stepmom.

"hello..?" I answered awkwardly.

"Ashton, hi! it's Judy...I just wanted to apologize. i'm not sure if I weirded you out. your dad told me what happened between you guys and he said you aren't answering his calls. but I personally wanted to apologize. you must have felt so overwhelmed finding out you had a stepmom and sibling. I never knew your dad never told you," she said and I frowned shaking my head.

"no, judy, it's completely okay. you have nothing to apologize for. what happened between my dad and I has nothing to do with you or the kids. thank you for calling though, it makes me feel so much better."

"sorry for calling so late. it's just my shift just ended and I really have been wanting to call," she said and I nodded my head, "your dad also wants to speak to you, but you don't have to. I just know how he's been and he just feels terrible."

I sighed, running a hand through my curls before noddin my head, trying to convince myself I could talk to him. he's my father and if I wanted to build a relationship with him, I'd have to speak to him for starters.

"yeah, okay. i'll talk to him," I said and waited as she put him on the phone.

"Ashton," his voiced sounded through the phone, "I am so sorry, you have every right to be mad at me. I know how I haven't been in your life and your friend was right, I wis I could have called you when you were younger and be there for you, and your sister and brother, I know the mistakes i've made and i'm just sorry I love you kids so much, and I really hope I didn't ruin anything that hand even started yet. if you don't want to see me anymore I'd understand. you're all grown up right? you don't need to your dad anymore."

my throat swelled up as I got a lump in my throat, hearing all he had said.
"dad, I love you. no matter what happened in the past. I know you made your mistakes, and that's okay just as long as you're here for us then I want to see you again," I said as he sighed of relief.

"good because I promise i'll be there. maybe you and your brother and sister could come over and stay this weekend?" he asked and I smiled.

"yeah I'd like that," I said and remembered how he mentioned my friend had spoken to him. "wait dad, what did you mean when my friend said," I asked.

"your friend came over?" he said like I should have known, "I thought you knew. he knew about what happened," he said.

I never told anyone but my mom what happened. unless she told one of the boys. she might have told calum? or michael. definitely michael. he's pretty close with me. I don't see why she would tell him something like that? it's not his business anyways.

"oh...yeah." I said, "but it's getting late, and I have to get up early tomorrow. we'll talk later?"

"yes, of course! i'll call tomorrow," he said.

"alright, later then," I said.

"bye, I love you," he said and I stiffen.

"love you too," wa the last words spoken before I hung up.

last time I said those words to him were thirteen years ago. it felt almost weird to say. kind of awkward actually. but he said it first, and that made me feel a whole lot better.

now i'll just have to text michael if he talked to my dad. I waited up fifteen minutes to get a text back.

from: michael
no? lmao why would I talk to your dad
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once I found out it wasn't him, I text both my dad and calum. I asked calum same thing I did with michael. and I asked my father what'd he look like.

after waiting too long I decided just to call calum, and thankfully he a answered. but of course he didn't talk to my father either. and no way luke talked to him. how would luke even talk to him? he couldn't. maybe it was my mom who called and he just said it was my friend? that's more realistic now.

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I woke up, grabbing my phone glancing at the time.
1:43 a.m

I yawned sitting up, realizing I fell asleep playing on my phone, with the lights on. I noticed my dad had text me back.

from: dad?
it was a blonde boy I didn't catch him name. he seem to care about you though.
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it was luke? how did he even know about my dad and I and him drinking? I didn't tell anyone and definitely not him. i've been ignoring his text messages. maybe it's time to text him?

(((okay so there going to text so it's going to be in text log just for a brief moment so if you don't like it; skim ovaa? you won't be TOO lost so yeah)))

june, 11, 2014 1:49 a.m

ashton: did u talk to my dad...?
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luke🐧: uh...would you be mad if I did?
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luke🐧: not that I did..
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(•••)

ashton: i already. know u did...how did u know?
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luke🐧: you butt dialed me...
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luke🐧: i'm sorry it wasn't everything u wanted...
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(•••)

luke🐧: can we talk now...I don't want you to ignore me....i'm so sorry
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ashton: I miss u...you're my best friend...but I don't think I want too
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luke🐧: ash plz....you really don't understand ok? i was dealing with stuff
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ashton: fuck you luke, I was dealing with shit too still am but I don't expect you to care
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(•••)

after that, I waited for luke to text me back, but he neve did. what a fuckig asshole no don't care if i'm ma at him. it makes me even angrier he didn't text back. i'm not doing this shit again.

ashton: oh what now, you're just gonna go back to ignoring me again???
delivered

ashton: you're such a fucking asshole luke
delivered

ashton: fuck you, fuck you luke honestly you're the worst ever
delivered

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