inadequate ☠ afi + lrh • mgc/cth (boyxboy)

l.r.h

July 16, 2014, 7:17 p.m

I smiled giving Ben a hug, "thanks bro."

he smiled and patted my back before getting in his car, leaving jack and mom along with calum and michael.

"dude, why don't you just let him come over? he won't stop begging us to try and talk to you," michael said as I went back into the kitchen grabbing my piece of cake.

I sighed shaking my head, "because. he just can't."

calum rolled his eyes, "you guys are best friends. whatever you're arguing over is probably dumb anyways. just get over it?"

a frown came across my face and I felt my eyes watered. it's not dumb. I can't help my feelings towards him. maybe it is dumb. has feelings towards him in the first place, knowing he doesn't like me back.

"it's not dumb," I said quietly before throwing my cake away and running up to my room.

"luke, wait!" they called as I went to my bedroom and laid on my bed.

I let the warm tears roll down my face as I set quietly on my bed. the door opened and my bed sunk in behind me, as arms were wrapped around me, knowing it was calums because michael was standing in front of me.

"i'm sorry lukey....what's going on between you guys?"

I shook my head as michael sat up, placing his hand on my cheek, stroking my skin. he gave me a small grin, and I returned one, probably not looking as cute as him though.

"I can't tell you guys," I finally said.

"why not?"

I shook my head, "I just can't."

they wouldn't understand. they think i'm so perfect anyways, right? i shouldn't be crying. it's my birthday. i'm not just gonna lay here and cry. okay, maybe i am. so what? i just want ashton. that's what will make me happy. may if i just text him back, he can come over and i'll pretend i never said anything and we'll go back to being best friends? what could possibly happen?

July 16, 2014 7:29 p.m

luke: thanks...do you want to come over and hang out with the boys? i mean it's my birthday after all and we're always together... read 7:30 p.m

ashton: are you sure? it's gonna be awkward between us...is it? i don't want it to be c
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luke: yes, i'm positive. please, it won't be awkward. we'll just pretend nothing happened okay? just for tonight ash..
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ashton: okay...omw
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my stomach swirled as i sat up, having calums arm drop from my waist, "ashton's coming over," i said as the boys smiled, high fiving.

"finally," michael huffed, making her weight fall on me as he laid down on me making me laugh and try to shove him off.

"off michael!" i giggled as he just wiggled on top of me.

after i finally stopped laughing, we all turned my game system on and started playing mma. of course i got first controller. the other boys didn't complain. calum was probably the best at this game. he was pretty good at the game system, not gonna lie.

once the doorbell ring I nearly jumped out of my seat, telling the boys I got it and just to continue playing without me. "like chill it's just the pizza guy," Calum said glancing out the window.