inadequate ☠ afi + lrh • mgc/cth (boyxboy)

l.r.h

july 9, 2014, 4:35 p.m

why won't he answer me? it's be two days. I apologized and called and text but he just won't talk to me.

a loud groan was heard from my bed, and I glance over at Niall, "dude, if it's bothering you this much, just call or text again until he answers."

I understand why. I know i've ignored him but I ha valid reasons. the only reason he has is because he's mad i've ignored him. maybe I should just keep trying. he wouldn't block my number. it's Ashton. he'll answer me. I know he will.

to: Ashton
ash please answer me okay I know i've hurt you and that's why i'm messaging you now to talk so please answer me. I didn't know it was bothering you
read 4:59 p.m

to: ashton
Ashton I can see that you're getting these. your read receipt is on...please ash i'm begging you
read 5:01 p.m

(•••)

from: ashton
so after you realized you hurt me you decide to message me after you've been ignoring me for no reason at all?
read 5:04 p.m

I groaned in frustration. only if he knew why I was ignoring he might not be as mad. well it could end our friendship for good and I definitely don't want that.

I groaned, running a hand through my blonde hair, before typing again.

to: Ashton
I had reasons Ashton you know I would never just ignore you just bc I wanted to you're my best friend and i'm really sorry I hurt you
read 5:05 p.m

from: Ashton
just leave me alone luke...
read 5:06 p.m

I wanted to cry. I should have known this would happen. I don't know what to do I just want to tell him, but I couldn't.

I can't tell him. I can't.

I set my phone down standing up. I needed to sop feeling this way. and I don't know how much longer I can contain myself. I groaned walking over to Niall.

"what are you-"

I cut him off my pressing my lips against his. I knew he was shocked. I could tell when he went stiff. but what shocked me more was only after a few seconds, he actually started kissing my back.

he laid back, not breaking the kiss as I crawled on top of him, holding my weight of with my arms. I pulled away, kissing down his neck, and sucking harshly under his ear. he fidgeted under my touch. it felt wrong. it's not that kissing another guy felt wrong. but it felt wrong because all I could manage to do was picture it was Ashton.

I pulled away, not knowing what to do. so I rolled off of him and sat up, starring at my floor. Niall set up beside o me, stared at me to see what my next impression was.

"l-luke?" he asked.

well, that's one way coming out to one of your friends.

I sighed, rubbing my face with my hands, "i'm sorry Niall. I shouldn't have done that to you, I just...I didn't know what else to do."

"no it's okay, luke, really," he said rubbing my back as I kept my face in my hands.

my phone started ringing, I I pulled it out from my pocket and answered seeing it was Ashton.

"Ashton?" I said, but all I heard was s reaming on the other end. "Ashton...?"

but he didn't hear me, so I figured he butt dialed me on an accident.

"I said I don't want to talk about it!" I heard Ashton cry.

"well you coming home at three in the morning from your dads house clearly means something happened! just tell me what happened and I will deal with it Ashton, I am your mother!" ashton yelled back as I heard him crying. literally crying hard.

"h-he got drunk!" he cried out, "he just, he wasn't the same and I just wanted to come home. he was mean," he said.

I clicked the end button, not being able to hear Ashton cry. Niall looked at me concern as I stood up.

"sorry, Niall, i have to go somewhere," I said an he nodded and walked out with me and I got into my moms car and started driving.

where in the hell would Ashton's dad even live? I could google it but I don't even know if that with work. but I guess I should try. I pulled my phone out, googling his name. no, it's not weird I know his dad's name. he's my best friend.

once an address popped up, I decided to pray that one was his and drove there. the drive was only twenty minutes maybe, and it was a nice how I pulled up to. honestly I wasn't even sure if this was his house.

right as I was about to get out, a woman and two kids walked out. the little girl was wearing a tutu and the boy held a guitar.
it was a cool guitar, too.

once they got into their car, and drove off I got out of mine and walked to the front door. I stared at it for who knows how long before I actually knocked. not even a minute later the was a tall man at the door, and I knew it was Ashton's dad. looked a lot like him.

"hello," he said.

"i'm Ashton's friend."

"oh!" he said and looked concerned, "is he with you?" he questioned looking last me and I furrowed my brow and shook my head.

"no, why would he be?"

he frowned and nodded and invited me in. I glanced around, at his very nice place. I didn't take no time into giving him my monologue.

"why did you do that to Ashton?" I questioned.

"look, kid, I didn't mean to get drunk. it doesn't happen often, I made a mistake of drinking around him, but he'll be fine. i'm gonna call him and apologize-"

"no, you're not," I said angry interrupting him, "and if you do, that'll be the last. he's waiting thirteen fucking years for his dad to call him, and now that you finally do, you ruin it for him and now he's all upset at his house. not only did you ruin it for you, but you ruined it for your other two kids too. don't you miss Harry? and Lauren?"

his face got red and he seeme completely embarrass. guilt was washed all over his face, "okay I know I messed up by not seeing them. but i'm going to make it up," he said and I rolled my eyes.

"you got six years with Harry, and three with Lauren until they're 18, and they won't need you anymore. what makes you think Ashton needs you?"

his frown never let, and neither did his guilt, "look, stay away from Ashton. unless you plan on getting over this drinking problem. because he's been hurt his whole life, and I don't want to see him hurt anymore," I said and all he did was nod.

I shook my head before walking out of the house. what a piece of shit.