inadequate ☠ afi + lrh • mgc/cth (boyxboy)

l.r.h

June 20, 2014, 8:14 p.m

I sat on my bed, playing my game system. I just got out of the shower and my hair was still wet, but it didn't bother me.

"shit," I muttered while the ball got stolen from me.

a knock on my door nearly distracted me from the game. only because no one was currently home since my parents were out.
"come in."

I didn't take my eyes off the tv as the tall lean figure waltz in to my room. glancing over at the person seeing t was Ashton then my eyes went back to the tv.

then I realized he was crying and I stopped, tossing my controller and walking over to him, worried what was wrong.

"Ashton," I said as I pulled him into a hug and we sat on my bed as he continued to cry for awhile.

instead of trying to talk to him, I just hugged him and rubbed his back. I wasn't exactly sure what he was so hurt by, but I figured it was something to do with his dad or girlfriend. possibly his dad because I knew he had issues about never growing up with him. once in a blue moon he'd always come to me so upset and why. but I knew Ashton had problems.

bad problems

"ash," I whispered, as he sniffled and looked up at me, while wiping his wet eyes.

"she left."

my brow furrow and I became confused. she left? who left?

"who?"

he let out a sad sigh and shook his head, "Brittany. she left today. and she broke up with me. I ruined everything and now she's gone and i'm here, and nothing's changing for me. i'm still me while she leaves and everything gets to change for her and she's happy with both of her parents."

my heart sunk, and he started up crying again and I hugged him tighter.
"Ashton, I didn't know. i'm so sorry. she was awesome dude, and i'm sorry she left you like this...what happened to her not leaving in a year?"

"I don't know! she just told me they were leaving and they did," he cried making me sad and I continued to rub his back.

after a few minutes when he seemed calm down, I tried to say something's that will help. they helped with his other exes.

"you didn't need her anyway, man-"

but that seem to make him angry and he jumped up, cutting me off.

"no luke, you don't get it! I did need her. okay? you might have everybody and you have just a perfect little family, but I needed her, unlike you," he basically shouted in my face.

the color in my face drains out as I stood up, clearing my throat. all I wanted to do was punch him. for saying that my family is perfect and I didn't need nobody else. I was angry because it was all lies.

Ashton noticed the look on my face and his expression softened and he shook his head, "luke, i-i'm sorry. I didn't mean it," he said shaking his head and I just stood there.

"okay," I said but there was more I wanted to say and if it was any of the other boys I might have just said it. but I can't with Ashton. he's already hurting.

"i'm sorry. I didn't mean to say that I was just angry," he said and sighed.

"I get it. people say how they really think and feel about a person when they're angry so I see Ashton. but I don't care," I said and he tried to speak up but do the first time I shut him down, "if you're staying over then o ahead and lay down. i'm tired and I have to get up early."

but what I really wanted to tell him was to he ounof my room and leave. but I just didn't have the heart too. i can be bold but not that bold. he nodded his head and kicked his shoes off before laying in bed. I grabbed my pillow, and my sheet and walked over to my mushroom chair.

"why aren't you sleeping in your bed?"

"because you are. so i'm taking the chair," I said as if that's what I always do. which it isn't, but still. I was just too upset to sleep with him right now.

so we lied down, and I could hear Ashton sniffle a couple times. I felt extremely guilty. maybe I was too mean. maybe I should have just lied down with him. I could have made him feel worse. but this wasn't just for his good, it was for mine too. it will help making me think all these...weird thoughts. so i'll do whatever helps.