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CHAPTER 39 - FINALLY DECIDED

A week has passed and I still act cold towards him but not that cold. I still talk to him like how we do but when he initiates a skinship, I refuse to except for holding my hands. I know he's getting suspicious at why I'm acting like this but I can't help it. After that talk with Naeun, I feel a little insecure about myself. 

Who am I kidding? I really am insecure.

I knocked at Yoongi oppa's door. He opened it and let me in.

"Oh! Wae?"

"Nothing. Just wanna check on you."

"Well, I'm perfectly fine. Just working on some music."

"Wooohooo~ can I watch?" he nodded.

He was drawn into his own world doing stuffs he is expert at.

"Oppa?"

"Hmm?"

"Are there any groups you're really close at? You know, cuz you're idols and you're always with other groups you always interact with when you're doing promotions."

"Hmmm... Of course. There's VIXX sunbaenim. Jin hyung is really close with Ken hyung. Also Taehyung is close with EXO sunbaenim's Baekhyun hyung and Suho hyung."

"Ahhh.. How 'bout girl groups?"

"Well... only Apink sunbaenim. We're close to them especially Jimin. But that was before. We don't have any communications with them now." After hearing that group name, my mood kinda changed. I become a little bit gloomy.

So Naeun's really telling the truth.

Now I feel more insecure and suspicious.

"Hey... why the face?"

"..."

"Jealous cuz your man's close with other girls?"

"A-ani. Why would I? I trust him. Just asking so I can warn unni on who she must keep her eyes on." I lied.

"Whatever. I only love Seungah. Period."

"Cheesy. Quit it, it's not your style."

I spent my whole day with him. Somehow, my worries about my relationship vanished while I'm with him. We played and teased each other like before. It feels like decade since we last been like this. Every now and then, I helped him with his songs but he said I'm not helping in any way and that I'm just distracting him. Sorry I'm not good at those. At least I tried.