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五十一 -

— fifty-one ;

Jimin, Taehyung, and Jungkook are currently in the living room. They're all studying since exams are coming up. Jimin and Taehyung are graduating and Jungkook has about a year left.

It's been a week since Yoongi's birthday and everything's been a little stable and quiet now since that night.

"I was at the wrong, hyung." Jimin blamed himself with heavy tears as he prodded his finger to his chest. "I shouldn't have liked him. I shouldn't have been such a shit-"

"How many times do I have to tell you that it's not your fault?" Jin said gently. "You can't schedule a date for when you'll start liking someone. You can't just wake up one day and say 'oh, what a nice day to like someone'. That's not how it works, Jimin."

"I know, but everything's ruined now." Jimin cries out, the pain in his chest unbearable and it alsi hurts his friends to see him like this. "I can't patch things up with hyung and even if I do, it won't be the same anymore. But I want everything to be the way it was, when everything was still fine and where everyone was still happy, no feelings associated."

"You know that's not possible."

"Exactly!" Jimin interjects.

"But that doesn't mean it's bad."

"What do you mean? It's everything bad."

"You hurt Yoongi and Yoongi hurt you. Nothing's going to change that fact. But if you think about it, you can and should still try to work things out. I mean sure things won't be the same anymore, but that doesn't mean it's all bad. You can still start anew and create a new beginning."

"But hyung-"

"Yoongi knows that, I'm sure he does. He just doesn't know how to do it since he doesn't have anyone to do it with, and that's you." Seokjin holds Jimin and hugs him momentarily before pulling away. "Do you still like him?"

Jimin bites his lips, tears still a little fresh. "Yes. No. I don't know."

Jin chuckles, ruffling his hair. "Well you better make up your damn mind and decide. You don't know if Yoongi still feels the same way or if he does not. But Jimin?...."

"Hyung?"

"Whatever the outcome, I just want you to remember that you are a strong person and that you shouldn't let anyone tell you otherwise. If Yoongi doesn't like you, still be friends with him but don't let your feelings get in the way. Let Yoongi come to you instead, but don't lead him on. Be with him because you want to be friends, not because you like him as something more than that."

"But what if I can't be friends with him? What if he doesn't want me to be friends with him anymore?" Jimin starts to panic again but the older smiles in return.

"Then forgive him, and while you're at it, forgive yourself as well."

"Hyung, stop smiling. It's creeping us out." Jungkook says, making Jimin return back to present time.

"Oh, sorry. Was just remembering things." Jimin says, biting another smile as he tries to put on a serious face.

"Was it about when Jin-hyung nagged at you again?" Taehyung assumes, not bothering to look over as he's too busy highlighting words on the text book he doesn't even understand.

"I wouldn't call it nagging." Jimin says with a shrug, high lighting as well. "It was honestly knowledgable and made sense to my empty mind."

"Hey, can you pass me the marshmallow?" Jungkook mutters to Tae.

"All I'm saying is... Jin-hyung made me realize things I couldn't because I was too clogged up in the bad things that have been happening lately. I couldn't think straight at all and I'm glad Jin-hyung made it stop." Jimin continues, slouching slightly as a sign that he's relaxed. "I can't thank him enough."

"Ya, thank us also!" Taehyung finally joins in genuinely. "We've helped you while you were in your chamber mourning for like who knows how long. We put up to you that much." he pouts cutely, clearly jealous for all the attention Jin, who isn't even present right now, is having.

Jimin giggles, throwing Tae a blue eraser. "Of course I'm thankful for you guys also. You guys have been with me since the beginning." This brought a smile to the whining male's face as he cheekily gives a boxy grin.

While they're all talking about random stuff, mostly about what happened in the past, a knock is suddenly heard.

"Who dares interrupt our precious time together?" Jimin glares at the door, cursing at whoever the person behind it is.

"I'll get it." Jungkook volunteers, slipping on his bunng slippers and heading of for the door, opening it.

"So like remember when Hoseok-"

"Jimin-hyung, you have a visitor here!"

Jimin and Tae's head both look over to the door, eyes widening at the same time. But Jimin's is wider. Jungkook quickly skips back to the living room and holds Tae by the wrist, dragging him inside the kitchen before he could even say anything.

Jimin coughs for a few seconds, standing up and reluctantly padding to the door, almost tripping on the way. "Hi." he says to none other than Yoongi who's wearing a thick sweater around his neck that's covering almost half his face.

"Can we talk for a while?" the older asks shyly.

"We're already talking."

"Alone."

"We're already alone."

"I mean not here, like alone-alone. Maybe while walking around if that isn't too much to ask?" Thank god the scarf is covering his cheeks right now, otherwise he'd have to explain to Jimin why on earth is he burning up and blaming the weather would be ridiculous.

"Oh, okay." Jimin says obliviously. "Let me just get my jacket inside."

"No need." Yoongi quickly interjects, removing his own jacket and handing it over to the smaller. "Now can we leave?"

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