where's my mind / poetry, oneshots etc.

shaking / poem

the one word that is blood red
and makes my throat close up
and hands shake
and blur my vision with tears
and my stomach lurches with fear and guilt and anger and pure pure terror.

people throw it around
like a joke
entwining itself into every day conversation
but it's wrapping itself round my chest and i can't breathe and
this isn't a fucking joke to me but my voice doesn't work
and i'm shaking under the table
because of your joke
and i want to scream and cry but i sit
silently
unable to make a sound.

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hi i get triggered v easily and i get fed up of people saying those words like its a joke so please stop thanks