you don't deserve me.
i'm so sorry.
i try to stop it but i can't and i hate it.
you deserve the whole world and more,
but i can't give you that and i'm sorry i can only give you a false sense of safety.
i'm a horrible person, i know.
i know it so well and it's driving me insane.
you don't deserve someone as terrible as me.
you deserve the stars.
i'm sorry you see a friend in me.
i'm sorry you see hope in me.
i'm sorry you see security
i'm sorry you see trust
i'm sorry you see a nice person.
because i'm not.
should i push you away or keep lying to you?
i don't know because you're my only friend and i'm thinking all this shit and i am so confused so please just leave because you don't deserve me.
you deserve so much more than me.
YOU ARE READING
where's my mind / poetry, oneshots etc.
Poetrywriting like i'm running out of time; like i need it to survive.
