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anxiety ranttt

MAJOR ANXIETY AND PARANOIA WARNING!! DONT READ IF YOU GET EASILY FRIGHTENED AND PARANOID

WOW OK SO

my sister showed us this conspiracy theory about that malaysian plane that went missing or something??

and so of course my anxious ass starting spiralling like

we're going on a plane in summer to go on holiday and i hate heights and i have really bad anxiety about things going wrong so planes are really scary for me

and mum and dad made it even worse by going 'you don't know if you'll even make it to school tomorrow' in an attempt to comfort me but fuck!!!! i am too afraid to do anything right now and i hATE IT

like what if the ceiling falls down what if i get locked in the bathroom or i suffocate in my sleep like the list is endless

and i'm scared i'm going to end up as one of those people who won't leave their house in case things go wrong y'know

so now i am even more terrified or everything like i wasn't anxious enough!! jesus christ i have to start recognising my anxiety triggers and actually leave when i'm faced with one

so now i have a headache from crying and i'm really dehydrated whoo :) thanks anxiety :) xx