Violentine one-shots (The Walking Dead)

Chapter LXIX: 5 Years.

"Clem?" Violet called for her girlfriend, looking up at the ceiling. The soft mattress allowed her to sink into her, comforting her in many ways. "Yes?" Clem sighed, turning her head to her right to face her lover. 

"I can't sleep." Violet sighed, turning her head to meet Clementine's eyes. "Why not?" Clem sighed, finding herself getting lost in Violet's emerald green eyes. "I miss Tenn... I know it was either him or me and AJ had to make that call but... Fuck." 

You could hear the pain in her voice. She wanted to cry, but she just couldn't. It still hurt like hell, even after 5 years of him being gone. The thought of the man he would've become was weighing down on her shoulders every day. She felt like she failed him. Like she could've protected him more but she also knows that would've cost her her life and Clementine probably wouldn't be able to cope. It would've fucked everyone up. It was a lose-lose situation. 

But she just couldn't force herself to be selfish when Tenn meant the world to her. She wanted to rewind and try everything all over again. Maybe throw him across then jump for herself... But she let that dream die. She had to accept reality for what it was. She had to learn to move on. 

"I know... I know. It's okay-"

"No, Clem, it's not okay! Fuck." Violet swore once more, basically throwing her self to face the wall with anger. Clementine decided that being silent would be the best option to allow her to express herself. "I miss him... So much. That sweet little boy who loved to draw... And Lou, his tongue is gone, I- it's all my fault." Violet whispered, regretting everything that had happened in those 3 days. She wants to take it all back, but she can't. 

"It's not your fault... I'm the one that made these decisions... Just... If I would've never got my leg cut... If I would've been stronger... If I would've been faster... or if we would've just jumped when she came and ran off, everyone would still be okay... If I was a good leader, none of this shit would've happened... It was either you or Louis... I could never forgive myself if I chose him... I love him too, but... You're too important to me... Just blame me. Okay?" 

Clementine felt the pain her girlfriend felt. Every single part of it. She could severely relate to everything that was going on inside her head. She felt horrible and put on a fake smile every day just to be even more convincing about her feeling good. Every day she took having two legs for granted? She regretted that as well. Every day she felt bad about something and it was starting to have an effect on her and her mental stability. She didn't tell Violet... Or anyone else because she was scared. She couldn't battle her own demons and definitely didn't wanna lay it on anyone else. As a leader, she felt the need to deal with everything on her own. 

"It's not your fault, Clem... Don't take responsibility for those things... I didn't mean to yell at you..." Violet took a deep breath and turned to face Clementine. "Please, don't cry." Violet took her finger and wiped one of Clementine's tears away. "It's just that everything is so bottled up inside of me, I can't find ways to tell you how I feel and I guess they're coming out now." Clementine chuckled, trying to ease the tension between them. "You can talk to me... always... Because I love you." Violet smiled, locking eyes with Clementine, getting lost in the amber color that surrounded her pupil. 

"I know, but I just don't wanna seem... Weak." Clem huffed, looking back into the same emerald green that she fell in love with. "Weak?" Violet seemed surprised. "Yeah... Weak."

"Why?" Violet furrowed her eyebrows in confusion. "I already feel like I'm not worth anything... I feel useless with this stupid stump... I can't do anything... When I feel things, it makes me feel weaker... And I just... I have to be as strong as possible for everybody... Especially you and AJ. I already failed him... Who knows what kind of dreams he's been having since the barn incident." 

"It wasn't your fault though. It was that... bitch... Minerva... I'm... I'm glad she's not a problem anymore. We're safe now Clem... And you're not weak. You're the glue to this group. You keep us together... We need you." Violet reassured Clementine, kissing her forehead after she finished vocalizing her feelings.

"You don't need me... But, I'm glad to be wanted... I... Just know that you don't need me." 

"We do! AJ needs you too! He can't live without you. Why do you think he cut your leg off in the barn instead of letting you die and rot? Because loves you... He needs you. He did me and the rest of the kids here at Home a favor... He brought you back to Texas Two." Violet finished with a smile, caressing Clementines face with her hand, making sure to share a smile to lighten the mood a bit.

"I know... I... I love you, Vi." Clem smiled, grabbing Violets hand that rested on her face and held it, sharing warmth between them. 

"I love you too, Clem... I don't know what I would do If I lost you... Like I said before, I can't lose you..." Violet's eyes couldn't move from Clementine's as she spoke gently to her. "You won't... I know I almost died, but you know... I'm still here." Clementine chuckled, feeling Violet's hand rest on her waist. "Good night, Clem." Violet sighed with a smile stuck on her face. "Good night." 

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This was a part of the lyric challenge for @violets-vest but guess what faggot forgot to do it :)))))

Anyways, I'll just post it on here, I hope you guys enjoy. Sorry Lexa, for not making the deadline :) Bye Bye.

PS. 

This is probably shit anyways :)