Forever My Person

55. You're My Happiness

Cohen

I haven't felt this happy in such a long time. I'm not really sure what true happiness was before her. Honestly if there's a word for beyond happiness that would be a better description of what I'm feeling.

Euphoria. That's it.

Yes I was happy when I was able to get away from my parents and be with the one person I thought was really for me. I was happy when I started my dream career in the NFL playing for an amazing team. I was happy when I found out I was going to be a father. I was so happy then. But like most of everything that I've experienced the happiness slips away and I'm back to feeling hollow.

Hollowness became a constant feeling. I'm not too sure when it exactly started but I know the feeling was there even when I thought I was in my happiest moments. Maybe it started when the person I thought loved me fully turned into someone I began to hate right in front of my eyes. I have blamed myself over and over thinking it was my fault. My fault she did the things she did but that all changed when a beautiful brunette caught my eye when I thought everything fell apart.

She's made me the happiest I've ever been. From seeing her barefoot looking at the beach at the party to sinking myself into her on the bathroom counter all the way to living every day with her and of course now. I've seen the brightest of moments with her and the darkest and just my luck I managed to get her back through it all.

I can't help but watch her as she's sound asleep beside me. I lay on my side watching the bed sheets rise and fall with her chest as she sleeps. She looks peaceful, there's no worry and no pain just peace.

Last night was perfect. Not only because I got to make love to her but to have her again. Things have changed but the love we have for one another hasn't. Feeling her soft skin with my hands and her soft sweet lips on mine was perfect. I was trying my hardest to control myself though. For the past few weeks we've taken it slow. Kissing and touches were there increasing the tension between us. I wanted last night to be as perfect and comfortable for her as I could. I wanted to go at the pace she needed and even if that meant stopping with a hard on in the middle of everything I wouldn't care. She's the most important person to me and after the battle she's fought I'd do anything for her.

Her dark long lashes fan against her skin and her pink pouty lips are slightly parted as she continues to sleep. I trail my fingers around her temple moving her long hair out of her face. Looking down at her, lying beside me back in our bed feels just right. But I want to make it even better...

I pull the sheets off of me and slide quietly off the bed. The coolness of the morning sends a chill through out my body. I reach the bottom of the bed and take in my beautiful baby sprawled out for me to devour her. I pull up the bottom of the sheet inching it up till I see her baby pink painted toes stick out. Not wanting her to wake up just yet I quickly crawl onto the bed between her parted legs. I drape the sheet back over my body and lay on my stomach. I inch my way up giving her smooth tanned legs gentle kisses leading up to where I plan to be. As I reach the top of her knee on one of her legs I feel her shift and a sigh escape her. I know she's beginning to slowly wake up now. I give one more kiss to the other leg before spreading her legs further open for me. I lift my head up and see her pussy dripping for me already. Just what I wanted. I take the flesh of her inner thigh into my mouth and suck. I want to leave my mark where only I can see it. With every suck I feel her hips lift slightly and her legs tense under me. I let her skin fall from my mouth looking at the pinkish red mark I left behind. I rub my thumb over slowly as I repeat the same thing on her other thigh. As I suck I look up at her pussy and her lips are becoming more wet for me. I love how much I can affect her even as she sleeps.