mattia polibio: my boy

back to skool

you lay in bed, the night before school. you couldn't sleep.

earlier, apparently, there was a live where a fan asked kairi and alvaro about mattia and you. they had said:

alvaro: mattia? HA. nahh he don't give a fuck bout no hoe
kairi: we don't give a fuck about no bitch

he sang.

man, fuck those small dick havin midgets.

for the rest of the break that you had you got high off of so many drugs you lost count. LSD, heroin, cocaine, fentanyl, DMT, and more. DMT was a great experience.
minus michael and his anger issues.
he had gotten worst.
when he was high off of certain things, sometimes he would let out his rage on you. verbally and a little bit physically.

just slaps and hits here and there. nothing major.

he even got mad at you for staining his bed on accident when you were on your period. he had shoved you off the bed and told you to clean it up. he called you a "nasty pig" like FIRST OF ALLL, you have a small dick.

ok, he didn't. but compared to mattia's, he was small.

y/n: i can't do this anymore michael.
michael: leave me and you'll regret it. i thought you loved me.
y/n: YOU HIT ME AND TELL ME HOW MUCH IM A PIECE OF SHIT. I DONT THINK YOU EVEN LOVE ME!
michael: am i just a rebound to you? huh? are you just using my for my drugs?
y/n: n-no.
michael: ugly slut

💭how long till i don't have to keep putting makeup on my bruises and making up excuses for it?

               heroin vs fentanyl vs coke vs DMT....

     fentanyl

                         felt so good

i can't believe i'm in an abusive relationship

and i can't just break up with him. he's gonna do something. i just know it. either kill himself or someone i love.

         oh my god

what if he goes after mattia?

         i'd rather him kill me than mattia

would he actually kill someone?

                      well, he is in a gang

wait if i leave him will i lose all the drugs too?

            should i take the fentanyl pills before i go to school tomorrow?

      nah.
                 i miss my old life when it was less shittier

          bruh does NO ONE like me?

                        the drugs do

            how am i going to leave michael?

i have to do SOMETHING

is he actually going to kill himself if i leave?

                            fentanyl.....

why is this happening?💭

and before you knew it, it was time to get ready for school. you got zero sleep. you were itchy, constipated, you felt sick and depressed.