mattia polibio: my boy

step one

they took you out of group therapy. ha.

erika was still in group therapy though, which sucked.

you had your own 'personal' therapist or some shit like that.

word had already spread online that you choked makayla and shit. but you didn't care. at all.

you already told everyone what had happened and people took sides. it was half and half.

did you care? no.

mattia had texted you about it.

you felt your sanity slowly slipping away. you felt your love slowly slipping away. you felt your own heart growing cold. you had your walls up, and they wouldn't be coming down for a while.

therapist: hi, my name is lily and i'm going to be your personal therapist. let's speak about what happened back in group therapy.

💭bruhhhh fucking killl meee💭

y/n: well, i choked someone.

you laughed. the therapist gave you and uneasy look.

therapist: what triggered you to want to choke her?
y/n: it's really nothing serious. she was talking shit and i got mad.
therapist: would you say you have anger issues?

it took you a moment to think about it. damn. you had to admit, you used to be hella chill. someones talking shit? you didn't care. but now, what the fuck happened?

therapist: in order for you to get better sooner, you have to tell me everything. think of me as an open journal.

you had nothing to hide. people knew you did drugs, your parents knew that. so who gives a flying fuck about anything else?

💭i'm a bad bitchhh💭

y/n: i usually wouldn't get that mad.
therapist: why do you think you got that mad?
y/n: i don't know to be honest.
therapist: do you feel as if your parents neglect you? sometimes that's the main reason why teens act out. or have you had any form of abuse in your life?

fucking michael.

y/n: kinda and yeah an ex.
therapist: ahh, i see. explains a lot. we tend to....

blah blah blah.

therapist: how about your boyfriend?
y/n: don't have one
therapist: oh. who was that lovely gentlemen you were with outside? a while ago?
y/n: my ex.

your therapist gasped.

therapist: you're abusive ex?!
y/n: nooo no. my main ex.
therapist: ahhh. so your ex before your abusive ex.

you nodded your head.

therapist: what happened between you two?
y/n: we had a cute little relationship. but you know shits too good to be true. so i ended up getting crossfaded and kissing his best friend. did it mean shit? fuck no. so he breaks up with me and the internet bashes me. his friends bash me. my parents bash me. everyone just fucking bashes me. his little followers at school even fucking bash me like who the fuck are you bitches, you know? then i get with another guy as a rebound and slowly start to catch feelings, but was i really catching feelings? or was it the drugs and loneliness talking? i wasn't thinking straight and he ends up being abusive. he was the sweetest guy i knew, like who would've thought? then mattia, my main ex, finds me overdosed and all of a sudden LOVES me and CARES for me along with EVERYONE else in this world. you know, i almost fell for it. and comes to find out he was talking to some bitch while we were together. like that's worse than a fucking meaningless kiss, right?! tell me i'm right!