Silence

Demise

As the sun does rise, so does the moon set?

I never saw my demise, when into my heart you crept.

I thought I could control, my hearts emotion,

Yet somehow you took my soul and now you have my devotion.

Your beauty fascinates, your brain intrigues,

My resistance just dissipates, as you sow your love seeds.

I struggle with my feelings, no matter what I try.

I cannot escape my dealings; it makes me want to cry!

Why must something so right, be so horribly wrong?

The way I feel I can only write, when my heart just wants to break out in song!

To declare what I feel, will rip asunder the years,

And leave others to reel, to suffer my demise with their own tears!

Time grinds by slowly; Eternity drags its feet,

Patience left immediately, Life has led to my defeat.

The day is never enough; the night is way too short,

Time without you is rough, knowing we must be apart.

My mind is torn asunder, my heart is overflowing,

I am worried about making a blunder. I shall reap what I am sowing!

Why oh why, does Life keep beating on me?

It sent you to me, why? Was it to steal my heart from me?

I stand before the precipice to insanity and stare at it with love!

To have it all, is but a vanity, I could cast myself off knowing I cannot live.

To be with you is to hurt you; as much as it is to hurt others!

To not be with you is my due, happiness is not to be mine and this bothers.

Sorrow and Pain are my companions; Suffering and Regret are my brothers

All I do is travel their bloody domains, my heart ripped out and in tatters.

Tintinnabulation overwhelms my mind, like a slow drip from a bucket.

I stare at Hell, with Heaven behind, this heart I wish I could just toss it!

In the bowels of Despair I am trapped, the light of your smile still lingers,

To show me I am damned, Loss takes my heart with his greedy fingers.

I walk through Life with my eyes open, and yet I see nothing,

But the Pain I willingly on others burden, even though I find it disturbing.

You are the half I need to be complete, incomplete I must be forever.

Life gobbles me up as a treat and spews me out without much endeavour.

A hollow where once my heart was, is filled by a black void of emptiness.

I should await the feelings to pass; to have you is to bring me happiness!

Your hair frames your face, a picture forever etched in beauty.

Your smile with my fingers I wish to trace, Life truly loves Cruelty.

A bitter taste of Life remains in me, the more I distance myself, the more it taunts.

The more I flee, the more it hurts me; forever I will be one of its favourite haunts.

I have brought about an ending, one filled with the worst of all, Regret.

My demise is of my own making, I am, as of now, a willing subject.