Somewhere, Someday

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<A/N at end.>

Songs for this chapter:

Old Money- Lana Del Rey

Without The Love- Demi Lovato

Avalanche- Nick Jonas ft. Demi Lovato (Seriously such a pretty song.)

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"If you send for me you know I'll come, and if you call for me you know I'll run. I'll run to you."

"What were you doing up here all alone?" If only Josh knew how alone I really had been. I didn't know if Harry was still in the other room waiting for Josh to leave, but I didn't think our earlier activities were going to ever finish.

"Just clearing my head for a bit. The music was clouding my mind." I lie partially to Josh and sit down on the bed. I play with the hem of my skirt, and I don't make eye contact with Josh. He was standing over me as if I was the person that had done something wrong.

"I feel like you're trying to run away from me Sarah. You have been really distant lately, and I don't know what I've done. I love you Sarah, please talk to me." Josh kneels down in front of me, which was much better than him looking down at me from before. I wanted to tell him that he was a cheater, but I also wanted him to admit it to me instead. That would at least mean he felt guilty about it.

"I'm not mad at you, I'm just not in a good mood lately." I take all the courage left inside me to kiss his cheek. I was definitely not going to kiss him on the lips. That would require me to at least like him, but I didn't. The respect I had for him is long gone.

"Come on Sarah, do you expect me to believe you're not mad when you kiss me like that?" Josh pulls me closer to his body and wraps his arms around my waist. It was so tight I couldn't even move away from his grasp. Josh had a look of lust in his eyes that I'd never seen before on him, and I didn't like where he was heading.

I push against Josh's chest with the palms of my hand. I was making it obvious I didn't want to be in his arms right now. "Sarah don't push me away like that." Josh pushes me to the bed, and he pins my hands above my head. I was kicking in his grasp, but he wouldn't budge.

"Josh let me go!" I screamed in his face, but he didn't seem to care. His hands roamed all around my body, and his lips found a home on my neck. I felt trapped in his prison. Why was he so hostile towards me, and could I make him stop before he hurts me even more.

"This is what real love is Sarah. I can't let go of you, you're everything." A tear escaped my eye. Had Josh lost all sanity? He was acting fucking crazy, and I didn't know if I could stop him.

He put all of his weight on me, and he made sure to let me know how turned on he was by rubbing his bulge against my clothed center. I cursed myself out for not wearing shorts, because he was right on top of my underwear.

"Harry! Harry!" I try screaming Harry's name to see if he is still in hearing distance. Josh stops kissing my neck when he hears who I call for. What did Josh expect me to stay quiet?

"Unbelievable." Just as the word left Josh's lips, he was thrown off of me. Harry was pinning him down onto the floor and I was free from his grasp. Tears were streaming down my face. What if no one had heard me? He probably could've done whatever he wanted, and no one would know about it.

"Sarah what happened between us?" Josh asks in between punches, giving and receiving them. "I thought we loved each other." People were starting to crowd into the rooms and hallways. I always ended up the spectacle, and I always dragged everyone into it.