My drug *UP FOR REVISIONS*

recovery

(harry's p.o.v.)
i wake up in a dark room where thunder roars fill the silence and i try to move but i get a sharp pain in my shoulder and i lay down only remembering a big gun shot and darkness and i look at my right shoulder and see bandages and i have no shirt on.

i turn and see a shirt and i put it on along with my flower crown and i slowly get up realizing i'm in louis room and i'm wearing some basket ball shorts and i see a note on the night stand so i read it.

dear curly,
louis here so here are some things you might not remember well after you jumped on your dad he shot you in the shoulder but dont worry i beat the shit out of him cause i wasnt going to lose another person i care about get killed by a asshole of a father with a gun. on the night stand there are 4 pills 2 are pain killers and the other 2 are your regular pills so take them with the water and get well soon cause if you dont i will kill that son of a bitch see i can be nice then louis in a second 'IN YOUR FACE ZAYN HA' (z:your stupid) shut up well we are all here for you we are down stairs so come visit when your ready and get well soon curly.- love louis 'the tommo' tomlinson

after i read this i smiled and took the pills and now i change into sweat pants and pull the sleeves down and put some socks on and wrap the banket around me and et my sore body down the stairs and i see all the boys even liam in the living room and they look at me and smile and liam walks over to me and hugs me.

''hi liam'' i say hugging him with my good arm ''hey guys'' i say walking over to every one ''hey are those my clothes'' louis asks and i look down and back up ''probably i got cold so i put these on i hope you dont mind'' i say ''of corse not...you look hot in them'' he says and i blush sitting down next to niall and he jumps onto my lap and i smile.

''hi niall'' i say and he looks up to me and kisses my cheek ''dont scare me like that ever again'' he says and i smile and nod ''okay i wont try to'' i say.

''what happened to my dad'' i ask and every one stays silent ''he went to jail again but-'' ''but what do you mean but'' i say ''um someone gave him bale so now he's out again'' zayn says.

''WHAT!!" i say jumping up making niall fall on the floor and the pain shoot through my shoulder ''harry'' liam says helping niall up but i just storm off into the music room and start to play the piano before i get even more pissed.

*
shut the door, turn the lights off
i want to be with you
i wanna feel your love
i wanna lay beside you
i cannot hide this even though i try
hearts beat harder, time escapes me
trembling hands touch skin
it makes this harder
and the tear streams down my face
if we could only have this life for one more day
if we could only turn back time
you know i'll be your life
your voice
your reason to be
my love
my heart is breaking for this
moment in time
i'll find the words to say
before you leave me today
close the door, throw the key
dont want to be reminded
dont want to be seen
dont want to be with out you
my judgment's clouded like tonights sky
hands are silent
voices numb
try to scream out my lungs
it makes this harder
and the tears stream down my face
if we could only have this life for one more day
if we could turn back time
you know i'll be your life
your reason to be
my love
my heart is breathing for this
moment in time
i'll find the words to say
before you leave me today
flashing lights in my mind
getting back to the time
playing games in the street
kicking balls at my feet
theres a numb in my toes
standing close to the edge
theres a pile of my clothes
at the end of your bed
as i feel myself fall
make a joke of it all
you know i'd be your life
your voice
your reason to be
my love
my heart is breathing for this
moment in time
i'll find the words to say
before you leave me today
you know i'd be your life
your voice
your reason to be
my love my heart breaking for this
moment in time
i'll find the words to say
before you leave me today*

I take a deep breath and look down at the tears that have fallen on the keys and i wipe the tears on my face away and some one sits next to me and i look up to see liam and he gives me a small smile and i rest my head on his shoulder and start to cry and he holds me.

''w-why cant a-anything i-in m-my life ever g-go good'' i say and he rubs my back ''i dont know harry but life gets better'' he says and pulls away from me and gets up and leaves and i wipe my tears away and try to calm my breathing down but can't.

"Hawwy" gemma says and I look up "hi gemma what are you doing here" I say "I needed to see if my big bwotha was okay" she says and I smile "I'm fine but gem's I want you and sophia to go to your girls weekend" I say and she nods "okay wuv you hawwy" she says and skips away and I sigh.

i play the keys on the piano the same song my mum would play for me and it's like i can see her playing the keys

* mama always told me never change who you are
she said one day you'll be famous
and you'll be her biggest star
even when you were bad
you were the biggest star she had
she would always say
never give up
today is just not your day
never give up
today is just not your say
then your promised her you said
'i will be famous mama as you sleep in bed'
then it all went bad
with one single shot in the head
mama was dead
but you kept your promise
to be her biggest star
you tell your self every night
mama isnt that far
you want to be okay
but everyday not your day
you want to say your fine
but this star can never shine
but you'll never give up
it's just not your day
you'll never give up
it's just not your day*

i wipe away the tears off of my face but they just keep on rolling down my face ''harry'' i turn around and see louis there and i run up and hug him and he's shocked until he hugs back and i cry into his neck and he rubs my back ''harry im so sorry'' he says but i just cry and cry not being able to stop.

''harry please calm down i hate seeing you like this'' he says and instantly i stop crying until a big sob comes out and i look at him ''im sorry'' he says and i nod ''look harry gemma left and the boys really want to hang out but if you want to be alone right now it's okay i could tell them'' louis says.

i sit down with him and rest my head on his shoulder and close my eyes and go to sleep.

(louis p.o.v.)

i see harry fell asleep so i pick him up and he wraps his legs and arms around me and i smile and walk to the stairs ''he fell asleep im going to take him upstairs'' i say ''okay well i should get going guys, are you sure i can go'' liam says.

''just go liam it's okay'' niall says and liam leaves with gemma and i take harry up stairs. i set harry down on the bed but he drags me down with him and i lay next to him ''dont leave me'' he says and i laugh ''just go to sleep i'll be here when you wake up'' i say and he nods going back to sleep and i get up and head down stairs.

i walk down the stairs and see niall peck zayn on the lips and i walk down the stairs ''hey harry wants me to stay up there with him'' i say ''okay you do that just make him happy'' niall says and i walk up the stairs.

''i swear if they dont end up dating in the end of the month im taking matters into my own hands'' i say and close my door take off my shirt and lay down next to harry and he basically lays ontop of me and i laugh ''night curly'' i say pulling the blanket over us ''night boo-bear'' he says and i smile and click the tv on and watch 'jack and jill'.