Damaged / ℂ𝕠𝕞𝕡𝕝𝕖𝕥𝕖𝕕 /

Nineteen

"Ava?" Isabelle said, almost panicked,  once she saw what I was seeing, she sighed "God damn you Noah" She said under her breath.

I took a deep breath "Let's party" I said walking back in and took the first bottle of alcohol that I could get my hands on, not even knowing what it was, I began drinking from it.

Everyone around me began cheering "DRINK DRINK DRINK DRINK DRINK" I heard all around me, and I kept drinking, I didn't know if the bottle was full when I got it, but now it's empty, I put it roughly back on the counter looking for another one.

"Ava chill" Alex said, I glared at him taking another bottle "I'm partying" I laughed out, but we all knew I wasn't, I was trying to drown the vision that I saw a couple of minutes ago.

Thinking back about it, I decided that it was best to just keep drinking, why even be a control freak? I have nothing under control right now, so why not have fun?

Alex and Isabelle knew it was time to shut up, so they did, they didn't say anything they just cheered with the rest for me to drink more, so I did.

After I had a half bottle down, of the burning liquor that tastes like my cologne, I put it down on the counter too, walking off.

I felt the world spin around me, the music was overwhelming me, but this is supposed to be fun right? I guess I was over thinking again when I bumped into someone.

"Sorry sir" I slurred "Ava?" Lucas laughed, "Heeeey" I giggled, he looked at me confused, knowing I was tipsy, but scared to ask.

"I need air" I yelled in his ear and walked out.

"Are you okay?" Lucas said, once we were outside "Oh, me? I'm perfectly fine, no worries" I laughed "I think you are drunk, and you're not the type to drink" He laughed.

"Oh, I'm not the type to drink, because I'm a nun, right? And a control freak and a pathetic bitch" I said, before I could think, it just slipped.

"Woah woah, I never said anything about you being anything you just said, I just meant that it looks like you're over the college parties and all" Lucas said.

"Well I'm not, so feel free to go away if  you are over the college parties" "I'm the one who throws them" Lucas laughed "Oh" that's all I could say.

"What are you guys doing together?" I heard Noah's voice, the blood started to boil again, feeling vulnerable but most of all, angry, angry as hell.

"Whatever you are not, prick" I threw at him "THAT is what this is about, I get it now" Lucas laughed.

"Go" Noah hissed "yeah Lucas, go, listen to big boss Noah" I said crossing my arms, Lucas looked at Noah, and seeing he looked like he was going to lose his shit, he left.

"What is your problem?" He said "I thought we were fine" He added.

"No, Noah, you are fine, you think everything is fine, you know what is not fine? Kissing me and the other moment being in the fucking jacuzzi with that fucking bitch and fucking-"

"Ava" "No, listen you asshole, I won't be your toy-" "I don't do girlfriends, what did you expect? Really?" He just said simply.

I glared at him "Well you wont be doing me" I said trying to walk off but he grabbed me by the wrist "I wont be doing you? What does that mean?" He  said.

"Let go" I snapped in his face, when I saw he didn't, I decided that it was best just to try to fight him off.

So I started to try wiggling out his grasp "Noah let go!" I yelled at him, loud, and his grip tightened.

"I already told you I don't do girlfriends, you wont be special Ava, I like to fuck, and I like to make out, but I don't like you, and I will never, ever like you, so dont come to me with your shit that I was with another girl, I dont have to deal with that kind of shit" He said, straight to my face, without even showing any emotion, or regret, he isn't saying this because he is mad.

He is saying this because he means it, and then he let go off of me "Get a grip on your self, and when you do, I'll make you feel real good" He smirked.

I didn't know what I was doing, but I surely knew that I was close to crying,  and I wasn't going to let him see that what he said had just affected me.

"Rot in hell" I snapped walking past him, purposely bumping my shoulder on his.

And I went back to what I did best tonight.

Drink.